this episode of Evolver Los Angeles: Six months after returning from a
most epic trip to Colombia and Mexico, our heroes experience a
significant calling to reckon with a long-standing dilemma that all of
humanity has faced… but will they find the answers? Read on to find

we’ve found ourselves wondering whether our emergent community is
capable of avoiding — or destined to perpetuate — biased and oppressive
belief systems, cherry-picked cosmologies, and self-serving
philosophies, much like our dominant culture has done with great success
(at least up until this point, anyway).  As a community built largely
by individuals choosing to opt out of the values and beliefs of an
increasingly obsolete and fundamentally self-destructive paradigm, we
can't help but notice the irony: Are we filling the void of antiquated
understandings and fear-based behaviors with our own dogmatic

Your truth is fascinating (and, ahem, trust us, so is ours). But as soon as it has to be everyone else's truth
in order for us to relate, things start to get a little sticky. (We
know. That we wrote this is in and of itself an attempt to get you to
relate to us. Irony is no stranger around these parts.) We all fear
being lost, wrong, misunderstood and misrepresented, and that can drive
us to influence others in order to gain support. Our participation in
the conscious evolution of the human and planetary organism is not
without contradictions, hypocrisy, and ego-based fears generated by the
mutating human spirit
, and
it’s no stranger to dogma, either. We project onto others both the
images we want to create, and sometimes, those we are incapable of
changing within ourselves. How then do we evolve responsibly?

actually take a step back to put this in perspective a bit. This was
supposed to be our second co-authored article about something else
entirely. But what happened was…we got distracted by something that as
Evolver Sporeganizers
, we've experienced more than let's just say… a
lot. You've likely experienced it too, both on the giving and receiving
end.  But finally, it became too big a question for us to not address:
Is our approach to our worldview(s) dogmatic?

recent situation found us navigating some unexpected harsh criticism
along with what felt like really unwarranted "spiritual" judgments about
honor and keeping our word. We felt sucker-punched. Probably you can
relate. We've all been guilty of judging others, and victims of the
cruelty ourselves. Of course it's easy to shrug it off, take
responsibility for how we reacted to the situation and find solace in
knowing that was "their shit." But that's not so easy all the time. And
we got to thinking pretty critically about it all, most specifically,
the cycle of judgment, dogma and pushing (consciously or unconsciously)
beliefs onto others as we move further into these changing times. We
felt compelled to explore the challenge in connecting our head with our
hearts. We want to truly tap into the powerful portal the cosmos offers
and be present and conscious for the obvious shifts at hand. (After all,
it’s 2012. If we’re not transcending now…then when?) But what if
we're wrong? What if the "right" answers to anything in this material
world don’t truly exist? Is it possible that our body-mind-spirit has
its own survival agenda, compromising and manipulating in order to do
so, and what if our insistence is simply a consequence of that? Does
that give anyone the right to tell anyone else that they
need to do anything?

our own relationship we've ebbed and flowed through judgments. Nearly
two years into working together on Evolver LA Spores, we butted heads
both publicly and privately. Challenged by the often-difficult aspects
of collaboration, one of us even considered leaving the group we'd
worked so hard to build together. Recognizing our deeper feelings
towards each other helped us through that and into deeper levels of
self-inquiry, as well as what it really means to consciously evolve
responsibly (as in, stay constantly present without judgment or
expectation). This is an especially hard lesson to learn when
recognizing that, actually, you are the problem. And we were both the

said, "it is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly
sick society." Up ahead in the not-so-distant future, we can see what
looks like an opportunity to transition from our collective illness.
Mindfulness, Compassion, Presence, and Patience sit like gargoyles at
the entrance of a New World. For many, they are scary looking
idea-beings we’re not so sure we can trust yet.
fear of letting go of fear and judgment as we make our approach towards
these values finds lots of us along the way becoming insistent about a
whole lot of things, slowing some of us down, making it incredibly
difficult to navigate when we're constantly tripping over the insistence
and persistence of so many dogmatic beliefs.

collaborating with others who share common goals, particularly on this
heralding-a-new-path of intentions, we've more than once felt a little
bit bullied, had fistfuls of pointed fingers shaken at us, been told we
need to: Transcend, Heal, Drink (More) Ayahuasca
, Make
Lots of/Give Up More Money, Meditate, Avoid Television and Committed
Relationships, Grow Organic Vegetables, Go Vegan, Occupy, Eschew Corporations and
Politicians, and so on. By no means are these necessarily bad
suggestions. But that they're so aggressive and absolute is where we
find ourselves struggling. Ironically, these commands often come from
individuals who have the keen awareness that we are all, undoubtedly,
One. (Are we then really judging anyone or just further exploring our
own self-inquiry?) And they have been prefaced with
statements that seemed judgmental and condescending themselves like
"this isn't coming from my ego"; "I don't want to hurt your feelings,
but"; "what you don't understand
is…".  And, well, we don't understand. It actually
did hurt
our feelings. And really? Of course it was coming from your ego. All of
it has been immensely confusing! That's the paradox of being human,
though, isn't it? We are contrary by nature. We are trapped inside egos,
even when we most definitely think we're not. And of course, if all
that stuff isn’t coming directly
at us, we’re likely dishing it out, too, projecting and justifying our certainty about a great many things.

cosmic joke is indeed on us — we're (seemingly) alone in this universe
and certainly alone in our egos — and that can be incredibly
uncomfortable. So we do strange, destructive things (not unlike the
fourteen strangers who came to Delmak-O in Philip K. Dick's wonderful
Maze of Death) even — and often after — we (re)discover the truth. Like
so many on this path who have had an awakening (be it a kundalini
experience, psychedelic journey, great trauma or serendipitous mystical
moment), we know that the energy released within us is most intense.
Tuning in to the emergence of a new world, a new possibility for our
species and the arrival to our understanding of something no one can
quite put their finger on, can bring about our excellence by allowing us
to become fully engaged in what feels like "our calling." (And as a
it can also flood us with an addiction to fear, creating an environment
where parasites and egoistic thought loops can grow or even lie dormant
for years before re-emerging.) Perhaps it's in order to motivate us to
push ahead, or perhaps it's just a coping mechanism, or maybe some other
reason entirely that the ego invites its closest friend and ally:
Dogma. Because we’re so enraptured by these exciting new possibilities
of a world that we think represent the antithesis of the prevailing
paradigm, we don’t recognize dogma for what it is. But a closer look
reveals the same: “
This is the way      

way to notice the bubble of judgment forming is the simple feedback of
defensiveness. Whenever we share a viewpoint and feel we have to protect
it, feel embarrassment or shame, or even feel an unwavering confidence,
we are in a place of judgment or dogma. This matters not whether our beliefs are
good-natured and helpful. Who among us has passed judgment not just on
those who do not share our beliefs, but also on our brothers and sisters
who’ve walked this path right along side us?

always feels right to its believer. It is a warm blanket on a long,
cold night through exhaustive self-inquiry. But what do we believe,
really? Why? Isn't everything just circumstantial? Surely any great
movement in history has kept its nascent followers up at night wondering
these things. And the closer one looks at fundamentalism, the faster it
begins to collapse in on itself.  It makes us wonder, is total openness
the true absence of dogma? But who among us is always completely open
to everything without judgment?

of us have explored ways of reinventing ourselves, been the walking
cliches of a movement a long time in the making, and sought a coherent
new story. We've bounced back and forth following our calling from both
sides of the spectrum — wanting to be part of a shifting world, but not
impermeable to the temptations of the convenient existing world. It’s
natural to want to run away from the buzzing of an oppressive, parasitic
civilization and towards spirituality, psychedelics, yoga (or any of
the myriad other belief systems that have formed amongst our ranks), but
it’s also incredibly challenging to stay there. Still, the frenetic
pulse of Something Coming now permeating through our network into the
mainstream is quenching a painful thirst for many of us who have long
championed these alternative views. But, does that mean they're right?
When we are confronted with people (in this community or not) forcing
beliefs down our throats, we can’t help but ask ourselves: Are these
ideas the be-all end-all? Just because we’ve figured some things out, do
we ever stop our quest? Do we hold tight to our beliefs and ideas no
matter what new information comes to us further down the timeline? How
do we maintain openness to everything — good or bad — while honoring and
exploring what we feel called to pursue in our lives right now?

a New Story is much like tending a spring garden: Seedlings are most
fragile when they first pop from the soil as they are irresistibly
delicious to predators.  Our current perceptions of truth and meaning
are also quite vulnerable in these early stages, both to our own ego’s
persistence in the inherent "rightness" of its beliefs, and also to
parasitic energies that can prey on our naiveté in claiming to know
anything with an absolute certainty. As the paleontologist Stephen Jay
reminds us, “The most erroneous stories are those we think we know
best — and therefore never scrutinize or question."

our experience, we find that many of us are becoming trapped in our
stories cleverly disguised as insight or the quintessential alternate
reality narrative (perhaps even with a touch of pareidolia). Our primary
concern is that it feels like a new class of fundamentalism is evolving
and perhaps jading our efforts. The irony, of course, is that at no
time in recorded history has there been an absence of fundamentalism.
Perhaps the most transcendent monks or yogis may have achieved this
state, but at large, societies have gathered around shared beliefs
generated by only a few, but perpetuated by the masses. We pass them
down through the ages. We fight wars and carry on hatreds because our
parents and our communities insist that we do so. We quest on towards
ideals, retell stories, and pursue possibilities…mostly because it
doesn’t feel right not to. But holding tight to any belief ultimately
obscures our view and ability to experience other possibilities…that may
also be just as right.

Still, it is 2012.

are different on so many levels now. Could shedding this dogmatic
behavior of insistence and ridicule be the great calling of our time?
Maybe that is why it feels as if we are truly at the precipice of a
change never before experienced by humans. Maybe it is not our personal
awakenings, shamanic experiences, sensible solutions to economic,
agricultural or environmental issues, or our art that are to be our
greatest legacies; maybe it's actually harnessing Total Openness and the
ability to find sanctity in staying in this Present Moment that will
allow humanity to truly transcend the world Dogma has built. (Or maybe
that's just our dogmatic belief. The irony is
still not lost on us.)

a sustainability standpoint, the human race must consciously continue
to observe its thoughts, actions and judgments and what the consequences
are if we ignore, disrespect and disregard our home and our role in it.
We can easily justify following our dogmatic pursuits for clean air,
food, and water, justice, freedom and expression. We can bring rituals
and ceremonies into our lives to nourish our own inner resilience so
that we cultivate new patterns and wavelengths that most serve the
planet, too. And we are also aware that perhaps… none of it really
matters. Perhaps it is egotistical to think we have already broken the
confines of our egos and our judgment while still pushing our beliefs on
others. Perhaps the
postculture will
be just as insistent about its tenets as in societies past. Maybe we do
need to constantly build a new world and burn it down as Burning Man
proposes. (And maybe that means we also let new people share the
experience.) The point is, the moment we insist on anything, we lose
sight of virtually everything else.

it comes down to for us in following this hurricane of self-inquiry is
consciously experiencing our reality and accepting the only real truth
(here we go again) we can identify: Change. Letting go, ironically,
seems to be the one thing we can actually hold on to. We're all
unfinished works of art. That means many things will shift as we grow,
most definitely our minds, our opinions and, if we're lucky, our
beliefs. Evolving responsibly calls on us to be always mindful of this.
Of course, we'll all do what we're called to do, but for us, what we've
learned is keeping that Dogma on a tight leash is the healthiest way to
make sure no one gets bitten.  

next time, you can find us mining the regenerative minerals of the
Noosphere while supporting creative community and telling the best
stories we can while dogmatically resisting the latest temptations of

Keep in touch with us on Twitter @jillettinger & @bazanovic

*Persus 9*

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