The Miracle of Self-Creation, Part 2

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This article is Part 2 in a series. Read Part 1 here.

 

If we are to end the war against the self, the struggle to
be good, and the war against nature that goes along with it, we must instead
trust nature. First and foremost that means to trust our own nature: our
built-in guidance system of pain and pleasure, aversion and desire. To do so
runs counter to several thousand years of conditioning, so we may be excused if it
takes a bit of time to learn the new habit of self-trust.

Civilization started with domestication, the turning of
animals and plants to human ends. In doing that, we created a conceptual divide
between the human and the natural realm, between the domestic and the wild. It
is unsurprising, then, that domestication would have been applied inwardly too,
toward the mastery of the human animal. Biological drives became something
dangerous, something to be controlled. The ascended human was someone who has
mastered his urges, who was willing to suffer pain and sacrifice pleasure for
the sake of a higher good. (The external application of this kind of morality
is called Fascism; internally the results are no less oppressive.)

Therefore we praise the person who goes against her desires,
who is not "selfish." We validate whatever is hard to accomplish, and
denigrate the easy. "It would have been really easy for me to just drive
on by, but I stopped to help that stray puppy." Hard equals good, easy
equals bad. It is hard to fight desire, easy to succumb to it. It is hard to
resist pleasure, easy to avoid pain. Hence we derive the formulae: pleasure
equals bad; pain equals good.

These formulae run utterly contrary to biology, in which
pleasure and pain are essentially guidance mechanisms directing an organism
toward beneficial things and away from harm. In mammals though, parental
acceptance is an even stronger motive than the desire to avoid pain. If we must
do painful things in order to be accepted (in order to be "good"),
then eventually we come to associate pain, or at least some forms of it, with
good. This is the domestication of the human animal, the conquest of nature
internalized.

You might recognize these formulae from religion, which
(outside its esoteric core, which teaches the opposite) is a key ally in the
program of domestication. This is true of any religion founded within
civilization; it is not, as far as I know, true of shamanic religions. The
closer a religion is to the shamanic past, the more it allows and celebrates
pleasure. Hence Protestantism is more dour than Catholicism, and the
shamanically-colored religions of Hinduism and folk Taoism are more
pleasure-positive still.

As the Ascent of Humanity reached its apex in the
seventeenth through twentieth centuries, the artificial conceptual divide
between spirit and matter peaked as well. In religion, the realm of spirit
became entirely separate from, and opposed to, the realm of matter, and the
soul became separate from the body. Science did away with the former realm
altogether, substituting culture, the mind, conditioning, and so forth as the
oppositional counterpart to the body. Here as in almost every important
question, science and religion agree: we have a uniquely human part and an
animal, biological part, and to be "good," to enjoy the benefits of
civilization, to be ascended above animality, the human part must prevail.

Let me put it another way. For centuries, up until quite
recently, science and religion agree: You are bad. In religion it is Original
Sin, or Calvin's "total depravity of man," from which only the
intercession of a non-earthly, supra-biological Christ can save us. In science
it is the selfish gene, the drive to maximize self-interest at the expense of
all other organisms. As Richard Dawkins, a leading proponent of the selfish
gene theory, writes, "Natural selection favours genes which control their
survival machines in such a way that they make the best use of their
environment. This includes making the best use of other survival machines, both
of the same and different species." In other words, it is our fundamental
genetic nature to ruthlessly exploit other beings to get what we want. That
sounds like a pretty good definition of "bad" to me! Biology is evil;
so, we must look to the countervailing force of culture to control it.

This ideology saturates our culture and indeed our entire
civilization. There has always been a thread of resistance to it, manifesting
at times as various hedonistic countercultural movements, most notably the
Hippie movement of the 1960s. All of them were maligned, coopted, or both, yet
all were also precursors and preparers for a profound sea change that is
gathering force today.

In my last essay I described how we try to control ourselves
through a regime of threats and incentives, attempting to use biology against
biology, tapping into our greatest fears in order to control our strongest
desires. Now I would like to describe a different way of living, one that
subverts the program of domestication and control, that ends the war against
the self and the war against nature that accompanies it, and that participates
in the sea change I referred to above: a vast civilizational shift toward
partnership with nature.

Most people, myself included, initially feel a powerful
resistance (and a powerful attraction) to the idea of fully trusting desire.
They produce all kinds of examples to prove that it would be disastrous. A lot
of my work is around food — initially, the kind we put into our mouths, but
now anything we take into our being. Whatever we pay attention to is our food.
People say, "If I trusted desire and ate whatever I wanted, it would be a
disaster. I'd eat bags and bags of potato chips. I'd eat all those things that
taste good but aren't good for me." It seems a truism that the things that
are bad for us taste good. It also seems true that we must fight desire to get
up and do a workout instead of lounging in front of the TV. It seems true that
when we give into our impulses, we start shouting at someone, or indulge in an
addiction, or pointlessly surf the Internet for hours. Desire and pleasure seems
to lead us away from productivity, away from patience, away from virtue, away
from health, and toward sloth, greed, obesity, and degeneracy.

This is an illusion. The binges, the explosions, and the
helpless compulsions that we see as desire unleashed are the result of losing
control, not of a life without control. Let me use a silly story to explain.
Once upon a time, a man had a pressure cooker, but the hole where the steam is
supposed to escape was blocked. The heat was on, the water was boiling, the
pressure was building — finally it popped a leak somewhere else. Quickly the
man soldered it shut. It popped another leak, and another as he frantically
applied solder. Finally he had encased the whole thing in a new layer of metal.
Problem solved, right?

The steam in this story represents desire. If the natural
target of the desire is blocked, then it will reach for the best substitute
available. If we clamp down on desire entirely, the result, after the pressure
builds sufficiently, is an explosion: a binge,
a bender, an outburst. In the war against desire, desire always wins.
But the substitutes for what we really want cause great harm to ourselves and
others.

Before I give some common examples of substitute desires, I
would like to discuss the origin of desire. Desires come from unmet needs. If
you hold your breath, you will feel a desire to breathe. If you need food, you
will feel a desire to eat. Moreover, it feels good to meet our needs: eating,
breathing, sexual release, tactile stimulation all feel good. This is the deep
link between need, pleasure, and desire that keeps us alive in this world. On a
fundamental level, the process of merely staying alive feels good! This is the
generosity of the universe. We get pleasure simply from meeting our needs. We
don't need to coerce ourselves into eating or breathing. Mystics who become
aware of the pleasure of breathing, of thinking, of sensing, of being speak of
the ultimate nature of reality as "existence-bliss-absolute." Bliss
is the default state of existence, from whence we came and to which we will
return. We depart from it only temporarily and with great effort.

One of the unmet needs of our culture is the need for
adventure, for exploration; the need to test our limits and explore the
boundaries of our world. We desire these things, but for many of us living in a
society that values order and security, they are unavailable. We turn instead
to substitutes: exhilarating amusement park rides, thrilling movies, gambling,
exciting snack foods. The creators of fast food and junk food commercials
understand this, and portray their products as novel and exciting. It's party
time!

Unfortunately, no matter how many Doritos you eat, no matter
how many thrillers you watch, the need to explore the limits of your world goes
unmet. The desire intensifies, requiring a higher and higher dose of
substitutes to assuage.

The same thing happens when we identify with sports stars
and superheroes as a substitute for the magnificent expression of our own
gifts; when we use sweet treats as a substitute for others means of self-love;
when we use video games or drugs as a substitute for play.

I think the biggest unmet need of our society is the need
for connection. This need is fundamental to all living beings, and its denial
is built in to the sense of self, discrete and separate, that underlies our
civilization. We are probably the loneliest people ever to inhabit planet
earth. We live among strangers: strangers grow our food, make our clothing,
build our houses, sing our songs, even, for the most part, heal our illnesses,
cook our food, and take care of our children. The reasons for this are deep,
having to do with the conversion of social capital (relationships, which are
personal) into money, which is not. But all of these were once intimate
functions. Sometimes I find it obscene to pay money for any of these things.
There is a word for the exchange of something intimate for money, and it is not
very nice.

We are meant to live in a web of intimacy. Tribal people and
agrarian villagers knew every face they saw, intimately. A stranger was a rare
event. You knew the stories of everyone around you, and they knew your stories.
They knew you so well that it was unnecessary and futile to ever be fake or
wear a mask. Being known, you knew yourself as well. Bereft of these
relationships, we do not know who we are, and suffer therefore a thirst for
identity and connection. We are bereft as well of our relationships to the
land, to place, to nature. We used to be intimately with the songs of a hundred
birds. Every plant we saw, we knew what it smelled like, when it bloomed, what
it was used for, what insects like it, and what birds eat those insects. We
knew every hill and stream. We were secure in a rich web of being.

Cut off from community and from nature, we suffer today a
terrible unmet need to connect. We meet that need as best we can. Some do it
with food: perhaps the most direct, tangible affirmation of connection.
"Yes, I exist," it says. Some do it with shopping. Some do it with
celebrity news and soap operas, a substitute for real, two-way intimacy with
the stories of each other's lives. But no amount of food, no amount of Reality
TV, can satisfy our need to know the songs of a hundred birds or the stories of
a hundred faces. These substitutes merely quell the longing temporarily without
meeting the need.

The situation is much like the man who was thirsty, so he
ate an ice cream cone. Ah, how cool and wet it is. But five minutes later, his
thirst returns redoubled. So what does he do? He does what worked last time —
eats another ice cream cone. Now he is even thirstier. He has a few more. Now
he knows he's got an ice cream problem, an addiction. He tries to control
himself, gritting his teeth, applying all his willpower, telling himself he is
weak and bad and greedy for wanting so much ice cream. Everyone else seems to
be controlling themselves — why can't he? Finally his thirst is too great, he
can't stop himself. He eats another one, castigating himself for his weakness.

Anything that dulls the pain from an unmet need without
meeting the need is potentially addictive. Here is another key part of the
puzzle: not only does it feel good to meet a need, but an unmet need hurts.
Substitute desires dull the hurting but don't meet the need. Sometimes they
even intensify it. Watching Reality TV doesn't actual make you more connected.
You feel less lonely temporarily, but it doesn't address the source of the
loneliness.

Anyone who has dealt with an addiction can probably identify
with the ice cream eating man. Probably all of us have experienced this pattern
in one form or another. Like him, we try to control ourselves, through threats
and incentives, and it seems to work for a while. But eventually our control
breaks. We conclude that we just didn't try hard enough to control ourselves;
we must try harder next time. This is
insane. We already tried hard. If trying hard didn't work, trying harder
is doing more of what didn't work. Insanity.

Ironically enough, when we see an addict or an obese person
or someone else with an obvious life-destroying flaw, we assume an air of
superiority and assume they just aren't trying hard enough. We try to motivate
them to try harder, with the same threats and incentives, the same guilt and conditional
approval, that we apply on ourselves. We also think, "I'd never do
that." Again, this is an illusion. We would do that. If there is one thing
I have learned in my life, it is that I am no better than the addict in the
gutter or the murderer in the prison. If my behavior is different, it is that I
was born into less pain, or different pain: a different permutation of the
wounds of Separation that afflict us all.

Eventually the substitutes for our real desires stop
working. In the language of addiction, this is called "hitting
bottom." More generally, it happens when the substitute causes more pain
than it dulls, or when it cannot dull the pain from the unmet need. At this
point, a big healing is possible. The real need, no longer obscured by the substitute,
often becomes apparent. If we can meet it, then the addiction or other craving
or compulsion disappears as if by magic. When the ice cream eating man drinks
water, he finds he no longer even wants the ice cream. His new-found abstinence
is something that seemed impossible before. It seemed impossible because it was
impossible. It is impossible to control an addiction through will. It is in
fact impossible to control any desire through will. It is only possible to
divert it, and the diversion is invariably toward something more destructive.
When we think we are controlling our desires, we are fooling ourselves: like
the steam in the pressure cooker, they come out somewhere else. We might not
even recognize them for what they are. So distorted, so diverted, so distant
they are from their original object that they seem inexplicable, capricious. No
wonder we don't trust ourselves. No wonder we think desire is a dangerous
force, an enemy opposed to what is higher, more spiritual, or more civilized. But
the real culprit is not desire, it is the denial and diversion of desire.

The question we face then, as we re-create ourselves to live
in a more beautiful world, is how to reconnect desire with its true object.
When our real needs are met, then the force of desire no longer vents toward
the addictions and violence that substitute. And what are our true needs? To
love, to play, to eat, drink, and breathe, to explore, to create, to give of
our gifts, to know and to be known. All of our needs are beautiful needs. If
you don't think so, look at a baby, a being of pure need. It is the denial and
distortion of needs that is ugly. To recognize and dare to meet our true needs
is a big step, so immersed are we in an ideology that makes a virtue of denying
ourselves. Self-abnegation is only a virtue if the self is bad. You will know
you are free from it when you no longer use "selfish" as an insult.

The pathway to accessing true needs and the authentic
desires that rise from them is defined once more by pleasure and pain. Why?
Simply because it feels good to meet our needs, and an unmet need hurts.

Why, then, does it seem that we get the greatest pleasure
from the addictions that cause the greatest harm? Why do the things that are
bad for us taste the best? Can anyone deny that it feels good when that buzz
comes on, when the donut goes down, when the rage flies loose? What has
happened here is that we have substituted a lesser pleasure for a greater
pleasure. We modern, civilized humans
are so out of touch with joy, with pleasure, and with bliss that we willingly
settle for their counterfeit.

We hardly know pleasure, which is no wonder given our long
conditioning against it. We have forgotten how to do what any animal can do:
maximize pleasure, minimize pain, and follow desire. This is to be expected,
after so many centuries of trying to "rise above nature." But we can
relearn it.

Before I describe a way to do that, a word of warning: what
I am about to describe is very easy. Don't try to validate it by making it hard,
by making it into some heroic practice of mindfulness. It is not hard, but it
is scary. Fear is the obstacle — but I don't want you to make fear into the
new enemy either. Like all the so-called "negative" emotions, fear
has its purpose. We use our fears to create a safe space around ourselves, a
womb within which to grow. Each fear is a strand of a protective cocoon. Only
when we have grown to a certain point do the fears which were once protective
become limiting. At that point, we seek to transcend them, to break free. We
enter a new, larger space, and grow again. My fear kept me alive even today, as
I drove home on the freeway. It helps maintain the safe space of this body and
this life, within which I am indeed learning and growing. It is not time for me
to transcend it. I am happy to listen to my fears. Only sometimes, an old fear
begins to feel restrictive; at that moment the time for courage has come. So,
if in contemplating my suggestions you feel the fear of a little girl, wanting
to jump into the water, afraid but knowing she can do it, knowing it is time,
then go for it! If you feel the fear of the teenager on the rocks, taunted by
his friends to make the leap into the abandoned quarry pool, but afraid to,
knowing it is too dangerous, then please listen to that fear. This warning
applies especially to serious addicts of drugs or alcohol. Look for a feeling
of exhilaration as opposed to dread in pushing past old fears.

It feels good to meet our needs; therefore, the path to
meeting our needs is to do what feels good. We think we know what feels good,
but we do not. We do not know, because we rarely pay full attention to our
feelings — even to pleasurable feelings. So the first step in self-creation is
to become truly dedicated to our own pleasure. This comes down to a choice of
where to put our attention. It could be no otherwise, for as I described in
Part 1, that is ultimately the only choice we have. It is our only power with
which to create self and world.

Overeaters sometimes think their problem is that they enjoy
food too much. Actually, they don't enjoy it enough. Already thinking about
dessert while still eating dinner, they are paying at best ten percent
attention to their food. In one realm or another, most modern humans do the same
thing. In the midst of life's greatest triumphs, we already are thinking about
how to parlay them into some future benefit. We rarely give ourselves license
to simply sit there and feel good. We are unused to, and uncomfortable with,
too much pleasure.

We have to be realistic and start from where we are right
now. If you are out of touch with authentic pleasure, start with inauthentic
pleasure. If you are out of touch with your true desires, start by fulfilling
your substitute desires. Give yourself full permission to get maximum pleasure
from everything you choose to bring into your being. For example, say you go on
a binge or a bender. You eat two pints of ice cream or chain-smoke a pack of
cigarettes. Ordinarily people will put their attention on things having little
to do with these experiences. For example, thoughts of "This is the last
time; I'm never doing this again; I'm turning over a new leaf." Or,
justifications of the choice, or self-criticism over it. But when you choose to
fully enjoy all there is in the raw experience itself, something unusual begins
to happen: you realize it doesn't feel so good after all. (That is, to the
extent it doesn't meet a need. Sometimes behaviors that we think are "bad
for us" are actually beneficial: eating saturated fat, for example.)

When we devote full attention to something that has
substituted for the object of a true need, then we learn in the body what it is
and what it is not, and it stops working as a substitute. You can only know
that chocolate or shopping is not connection when you have fully integrated the
experience of chocolate or shopping. It becomes just what it is.

Really, the magic formula I am offering is, "I'm going
to do whatever I want, and I'm going to enjoy it to the fullest." The
magic comes when you genuinely give yourself full permission to do that.
Quickly you discover that you don't actually want to do some of the things you
thought you wanted to do, and you don't get pleasure from some of the things
you thought gave you pleasure. Following this principle, I have almost entirely
stopped drinking, based purely on pleasure maximization. I drink absolutely as
much as I want to, without limit. I also eat as much sugar as I want to,
without limit, watch as much television as I want to and as much porn as I want
to, play as many video games as I want to, gossip as much as I want to, swear
as much as I want to. An outside might think that my near-abstinence from all
of these behaviors indicates a high degree of self-control, but in fact the opposite
is true. I exercise no control whatsoever. I've just do what feels good.

Learning what felt good, and giving myself permission to do
it, was a long process that is still ongoing. Sometimes it involved a
subconscious "testing" to see whether the permission was real. When
you give yourself full permission to smoke cigarettes, you might initially
smoke more, not less. But soon, when you know the permission is authentic, the
unconscious mind interprets "as much as I want" as "no more and
no less than I want." And you really don't want to smoke cigarettes. They
are a substitute for something else, something coming from a deep need. That is
why you find they really aren't so pleasurable, after all.

If this full permission seems like a frightening loss of control,
consider that you really have no alternative. Control is an illusion anyway. An
addict can pretend to have control, but he really has no control. Why not admit
it and cease the struggle?

A dear friend of mine was going through heroin withdrawal. Finally
she couldn't stand it. She called an N.A. mentor and said, "I can't stand
it, I want to use." He said, "No! Don't do it. Whatever it takes,
just for today, stop yourself. You must not allow yourself to relapse."
Then she called another mentor, and he said, "Hey, if you want to use,
then use. It's up to you." Within a month, the first mentor himself had
relapsed.

Control, trying harder, manipulating yourself with threats
and incentives does not work, never has worked, and is never going to work. It
is a slave's life, a half-life, a long, hard slog toward a distant reward that
never comes. Improving yourself by trying harder is like trying to reach the
horizon by running faster. The miracle of self-creation comes much more easily
than that. It is so easy that it is in fact impossible — impossible to do by
trying. Momentous personal changes happen naturally, almost as side effects, of
a shift in attention: not toward New Age "positivity," but toward
pleasure.

Our guide toward pleasure is desire (again, because desire
arises from unmet needs, and it feels good to meet our needs). As we fully
integrate the results of meeting each desire, we learn that some things don't
feel so good, and we no longer desire them. If it feels good and we know it,
then we want it. How much do you want to stick your thumb in your eye? Not very
much, because you tried that as a baby and integrated the results. Indeed, the
integration of pain is just as important as the integration of pleasure; pain
is an indispensable gateway to healing. As this essay invites you to trust
pleasure, my next essay will discuss how to work with the gift of pain.

I would like to address the Buddhist doctrine, attributed to
the Buddha himself, that desire is the root of suffering, and that to end suffering
we must end desire. The civilized mind, immersed in the ideology of separation,
interprets this as a battle-cry against desire: another enemy to be conquered.
Because desire arises from our biology, this amounts as well to a battle
against nature. It is the same thought-form as the Christian doctrine of the
depravity of man. But you cannot defeat desire by fighting it. You can
transcend it only by fulfilling it. Often, the only way to learn that we didn't
actually want something is to obtain it. To reject desire and to reject
attachment is to reject life. We are here to need and to want, to gain and to
lose, to love and to die. You can refrain as best you can from developing
attachments, from committing yourself to anything or anyone, but then you remain
at the periphery of life, safe but passionless, a bystander secretly wishing to
participate. Don't be afraid to want. And yes, it is going to hurt.

You have no choice though. The pain is unavoidable, because
you were born into need and you are a being of need, no less than an infant. We
are born into separation, and the path of our lives is a long journey back to
wholeness. The pain of the wounds of separation, the pain of our
incompleteness, is what drives us back. The Sufis say that all desires are
really just one desire. Fulfill each one, and you find a deeper one underneath,
accompanied by the realization, "Ah, what I really wanted was…" I
didn't really want that sports car — I just wanted people to respect me. I
didn't really want people to respect me, I just wanted permission to respect
myself. I didn't even want self-respect, I just wanted to know the truth of
myself. And so on. The Sufis say, all desires are the desire to be united with
God. All pleasures are the pleasure of that union.

Our desires pull us toward wholeness. In wholeness is bliss.
Neither health nor virtue nor spirituality will come in defiance of pleasure
and desire. The pleasure of meeting our desires and fulfilling our needs is not
some trick of the universe designed to divert us from our path. Desire is the
path.

For many people, just to hear someone else articulate the
logic of self-trust can be liberating. We all walk through life with a mute
rejection of the regime of control, but its ideology is so ubiquitous that we
don't even know what we are rejecting. Our rebellion turns to a series of
surrogates and never touches the real issue. Various social movements, often
hedonistic in reputation, have grappled with the tyranny of our inner
domestication, but the time for a universal liberation was not yet ripe. Today,
as humanity transforms its basic relationship to nature, the time has come to
do the same to human nature as well. We have long trodden the paths of
separation; we have taken them to their outer limit. Yet Reunion lies ahead of
us, not only behind us. We see it in our dreams even as we know it in our
bones. Our genetic memory of a once and future time of wholeness will guide us
on the perilous paths forward to Reunion.

 

Image by TheAlieness, courtesy of Creative Commons license.

 

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Having Sex on Shrooms: Good or Bad Idea?
Is having sex on shrooms a good idea or an accident waiting to happen? Find out in our guide to sex on magic mushrooms.

Gold Cap Shrooms Guide: Spores, Effects, Identification
Read this guide to learn more about the different characteristics of gold cap mushrooms, and how they differ from other psilocybin species.

Guide to Cooking with Magic Mushrooms
From cookies to smoothies and sandwiches, we cover various methods of cooking with magic mushrooms for the ultimate snack.

2020 Election: The Decriminalize Psilocybin Movement
Are you curious if mushrooms will follow in marijuana’s footsteps? Read to learn about how the U.S. is moving to decriminalize psilocybin.

Oregon’s Initiative to Legalize Mushrooms | Initiative Petition 34
Oregon continues to push ahead with their initiative to legalize Psilocybin in 2020. The measure received its official title and now needs signatures.

Canada Approves Psilocybin Treatment for Terminally-Ill Cancer Patients
Canada’s Minister of Health, Patty Hajdu approved the use of psilocybin to help ease anxiety and depression of four terminal cancer patients.

Mapping the DMT Experience
With only firsthand experiences to share, how can we fully map the DMT experience? Let’s explore what we know about this powerful psychedelic.

Guide to Machine Elves and Other DMT Entities
This guide discusses machine elves, clockwork elves, and other common DMT entities that people experience during a DMT trip.

Is the DMT Experience a Hallucination? 
What if the DMT realm was the real world, and our everyday lives were merely a game we had chosen to play?

How to Store DMT
Not sure how to store DMT? Read this piece to learn the best practices and elements of advice to keep your stuff fresh.

What Does 5-MeO-DMT Show Us About Consciousness?
How does our brain differentiate between what’s real and what’s not? Read to learn what can 5-MeO-DMT show us about consciousness.

How to Smoke DMT: Processes Explained
There are many ways to smoke DMT and we’ve outlined some of the best processes to consider before embarking on your journey.

How to Ground After DMT
Knowing what to expect from a DMT comedown can help you integrate the experience to gain as much value as possible from your journey.

How To Get DMT
What kind of plants contain DMT? Are there other ways to access this psychedelic? Read on to learn more about how to get DMT.

How DMT is Made: Everything You Need to Know
Ever wonder how to make DMT? Read our guide to learn everything you need to know about the procedures of how DMT is made.

Having Sex on DMT: What You Need to Know
Have you ever wondered about sex on DMT? Learn how the God Molecule can influence your intimate experiences.

Does the Human Brain Make DMT? 
With scientific evidence showing us DMT in the brain, what can we conclude it is there for? Read on to learn more.

How to Use DMT Vape Pens
Read to learn all about DMT vape pens including: what to know when vaping, what to expect when purchasing a DMT cartridge, and vaping safely.

DMT Resources
This article is a comprehensive DMT resource providing extensive information from studies, books, documentaries, and more. Check it out!

Differentiating DMT and Near-Death Experiences
Some say there are similarities between a DMT trip and death. Read our guide on differentiating DMT and near-death experiences to find out.

DMT Research from 1956 to the Edge of Time
From a representative sample of a suitably psychedelic crowd, you’d be hard pressed to find someone who couldn’t tell you all about Albert Hofmann’s enchanted bicycle ride after swallowing what turned out to be a massive dose of LSD. Far fewer, however, could tell you much about the world’s first DMT trip.

The Ultimate Guide to DMT Pricing
Check out our ultimate guide on DMT pricing to learn what to expect when purchasing DMT for your first time.

DMT Milking | Reality Sandwich
Indigenous cultures have used 5-MeO-DMT for centuries. With the surge in demand for psychedelic toad milk, is DMT Milking harming the frogs?

Why Does DMT Pervade Nature?
With the presence of DMT in nature everywhere – including human brains – why does it continue to baffle science?

DMT Substance Guide: Effects, Common Uses, Safety
Our ultimate guide to DMT has everything you want to know about this powerful psychedelic referred to as “the spirit molecule”.

DMT for Depression: Paving the Way for New Medicine
We’ve been waiting for an effective depression treatment. Studies show DMT for depression works even for treatment resistant patients.

Beating Addiction with DMT
Psychedelics have been studied for their help overcoming addiction. Read how DMT is helping addicts beat their substance abuse issues.

DMT Extraction: Behind the Scientific Process
Take a look at DMT extraction and the scientific process involved. Learn all you need to know including procedures and safety.

Microdosing DMT & Common Dosages Explained
Microdosing, though imperceivable, is showing to have many health benefits–here is everything you want to know about microdosing DMT.

DMT Art: A Look Behind Visionary Creations
An entire genre of artwork is inspired by psychedelic trips with DMT. Read to learn about the entities and visions behind DMT art.

Changa vs. DMT: What You Need to Know
While similar (changa contains DMT), each drug has its own unique effect and feeling. Let’s compare and contrast changa vs DMT.

5-MeO-DMT Guide: Effects, Benefits, Safety, and Legality
5-Meo-DMT comes from the Sonora Desert toad. Here is everything you want to know about 5-Meo-DMT and how it compares to 4-AcO-DMT.

4-AcO-DMT Guide: Benefits, Effects, Safety, and Legality
This guide tells you everything about 4 AcO DMT & 5 MeO DMT, that belong to the tryptamine class, and are similar but slightly different to DMT.

How Much Does LSD Cost? When shopping around for that magical psychedelic substance, there can be many uncertainties when new to buying LSD. You may be wondering how much does LSD cost? In this article, we will discuss what to expect when purchasing LSD on the black market, what forms LSD is sold in, and the standard breakdown of buying LSD in quantity.   Navy Use of LSD on the Dark Web The dark web is increasingly popular for purchasing illegal substances. The US Navy has now noticed this trend with their staff. Read to learn more.   Having Sex on LSD: What You Need to Know Can you have sex on LSD? Read our guide to learn everything about sex on acid, from lowered inhibitions to LSD users quotes on sex while tripping.   A Drug That Switches off an LSD Trip A pharmaceutical company is developing an “off-switch” drug for an LSD trip, in the case that a bad trip can happen. Some would say there is no such thing.   Queen of Hearts: An Interview with Liz Elliot on Tim Leary and LSD The history of psychedelia, particularly the British experience, has been almost totally written by men. Of the women involved, especially those who were in the thick of it, little has been written either by or about them. A notable exception is Liz Elliot.   LSD Guide: Effects, Common Uses, Safety LSD, Lysergic acid diethylamide, or just acid is one of the most important psychedelics ever discovered. What did history teach us?   Microdosing LSD & Common Dosage Explained Microdosing, though imperceivable, is showing to have many health benefits–here is everything you want to know about microdosing LSD.   LSD Resources Curious to learn more about LSD? This guide includes comprehensive LSD resources containing books, studies and more.   LSD as a Spiritual Aid There is common consent that the evolution of mankind is paralleled by the increase and expansion of consciousness. From the described process of how consciousness originates and develops, it becomes evident that its growth depends on its faculty of perception. Therefore every means of improving this faculty should be used.   Legendary LSD Blotter Art: A Hidden Craftsmanship Have you ever heard of LSD blotter art? Explore the trippy world of LSD art and some of the top artists of LSD blotter art.   LSD and Exercise: Does it Work? LSD and exercise? Learn why high-performing athletes are taking hits of LSD to improve their overall potential.   Jan Bastiaans Treated Holocaust Survivors with LSD Dutch psychiatrist, Jan Bastiaans administered LSD-assisted therapy to survivors of the Holocaust. A true war hero and pioneer of psychedelic-therapy.   LSD and Spiritual Awakening I give thanks for LSD, which provided the opening that led me to India in 1971 and brought me to Neem Karoli Baba, known as Maharajji. Maharajji is described by the Indians as a “knower of hearts.”   How LSD is Made: Everything You Need to Know Ever wonder how to make LSD? Read our guide to learn everything you need to know about the procedures of how LSD is made.   How to Store LSD: Best Practices Learn the best way to store LSD, including the proper temperature and conditions to maximize how long LSD lasts when stored.   Bicycle Day: The Discovery of LSD Every year on April 19th, psychonauts join forces to celebrate Bicycle Day. Learn about the famous day when Albert Hoffman first discovered the effects of LSD.   Cary Grant: A Hollywood Legend On LSD Cary Grant was a famous actor during the 1930’s-60’s But did you know Grant experimented with LSD? Read our guide to learn more.   Albert Hofmann: LSD — My Problem Child Learn about Albert Hofmann and his discovery of LSD, along with the story of Bicycle Day and why it marks a historic milestone.   Babies are High: What Does LSD Do To Your Brain What do LSD and babies have in common? Researchers at the Imperial College in London discover that an adult’s brain on LSD looks like a baby’s brain.   1P LSD: Effects, Benefits, Safety Explained 1P LSD is an analogue of LSD and homologue of ALD-25. Here is everything you want to know about 1P LSD and how it compares to LSD.   Francis Crick, DNA & LSD Type ‘Francis Crick LSD’ into Google, and the result will be 30,000 links. Many sites claim that Crick (one of the two men responsible for discovering the structure of DNA), was either under the influence of LSD at the time of his revelation or used the drug to help with his thought processes during his research. Is this true?   What Happens If You Overdose on LSD? A recent article presented three individuals who overdosed on LSD. Though the experience was unpleasant, the outcomes were remarkably positive.

The Ayahuasca Experience
Ayahuasca is both a medicine and a visionary aid. You can employ ayahuasca for physical, mental, emotional and spiritual repair, and you can engage with the power of ayahuasca for deeper insight and realization. If you consider attainment of knowledge in the broadest perspective, you can say that at all times, ayahuasca heals.

 

Trippy Talk: Meet Ayahuasca with Sitaramaya Sita and PlantTeachers
Sitaramaya Sita is a spiritual herbalist, pusangera, and plant wisdom practitioner formally trained in the Shipibo ayahuasca tradition.

 

The Therapeutic Value of Ayahuasca
My best description of the impact of ayahuasca is that it’s a rocket boost to psychospiritual growth and unfolding, my professional specialty during my thirty-five years of private practice.

 

Microdosing Ayahuasca: Common Dosage Explained
What is ayahuasca made of and what is considered a microdose? Explore insights with an experienced Peruvian brewmaster and learn more about this practice.

 

Ayahuasca Makes Neuron Babies in Your Brain
Researchers from Beckley/Sant Pau Research Program have shared the latest findings in their study on the effects of ayahuasca on neurogenesis.

 

The Fatimiya Sufi Order and Ayahuasca
In this interview, the founder of the Fatimiya Sufi Order,  N. Wahid Azal, discusses the history and uses of plant medicines in Islamic and pre-Islamic mystery schools.

 

Consideration Ayahuasca for Treatment of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Research indicates that ayahuasca mimics mechanisms of currently accepted treatments for PTSD. In order to understand the implications of ayahuasca treatment, we need to understand how PTSD develops.

 

Brainwaves on Ayahuasca: A Waking Dream State
In a study researchers shared discoveries showing ingredients found in Ayahuasca impact the brainwaves causing a “waking dream” state.

 

Cannabis and Ayahuasca: Mixing Entheogenic Plants
Cannabis and Ayahuasca: most people believe they shouldn’t be mixed. Read this personal experience peppered with thoughts from a pro cannabis Peruvian Shaman.

 

Ayahuasca Retreat 101: Everything You Need to Know to Brave the Brew
Ayahuasca has been known to be a powerful medicinal substance for millennia. However, until recently, it was only found in the jungle. Word of its deeply healing and cleansing properties has begun to spread across the world as many modern, Western individuals are seeking spiritual, mental, emotional, and physical well-being. More ayahuasca retreat centers are emerging in the Amazon and worldwide to meet the demand.

 

Ayahuasca Helps with Grief
A new study published in psychopharmacology found that ayahuasca helped those suffering from the loss of a loved one up to a year after treatment.

 

Ayahuasca Benefits: Clinical Improvements for Six Months
Ayahuasca benefits can last six months according to studies. Read here to learn about the clinical improvements from drinking the brew.

 

Ayahuasca Culture: Indigenous, Western, And The Future
Ayahuasca has been use for generations in the Amazon. With the rise of retreats and the brew leaving the rainforest how is ayahuasca culture changing?

 

Ayahuasca Guide: Effects, Common Uses, Safety
The Amazonian brew, Ayahuasca has a long history and wide use. Read our guide to learn all about the tea from its beginnings up to modern-day interest.

 

Ayahuasca and the Godhead: An Interview with Wahid Azal of the Fatimiya Sufi Order
Wahid Azal, a Sufi mystic of The Fatimiya Sufi Order and an Islamic scholar, talks about entheogens, Sufism, mythology, and metaphysics.

 

Ayahuasca and the Feminine: Women’s Roles, Healing, Retreats, and More
Ayahuasca is lovingly called “grandmother” or “mother” by many. Just how feminine is the brew? Read to learn all about women and ayahuasca.

What Is the Standard of Care for Ketamine Treatments?
Ketamine therapy is on the rise in light of its powerful results for treatment-resistant depression. But, what is the current standard of care for ketamine? Read to find out.

What Is Dissociation and How Does Ketamine Create It?
Dissociation can take on multiple forms. So, what is dissociation like and how does ketamine create it? Read to find out.

Having Sex on Ketamine: Getting Physical on a Dissociative
Curious about what it could feel like to have sex on a dissociate? Find out all the answers in our guide to sex on ketamine.

Special K: The Party Drug
Special K refers to Ketamine when used recreationally. Learn the trends as well as safety information around this substance.

Kitty Flipping: When Ketamine and Molly Meet
What is it, what does it feel like, and how long does it last? Read to explore the mechanics of kitty flipping.

Ketamine vs. Esketamine: 3 Important Differences Explained
Ketamine and esketamine are used to treat depression. But what’s the difference between them? Read to learn which one is right for you: ketamine vs. esketamine.

Guide to Ketamine Treatments: Understanding the New Approach
Ketamine is becoming more popular as more people are seeing its benefits. Is ketamine a fit? Read our guide for all you need to know about ketamine treatments.

Ketamine Treatment for Eating Disorders
Ketamine is becoming a promising treatment for various mental health conditions. Read to learn how individuals can use ketamine treatment for eating disorders.

Ketamine Resources, Studies, and Trusted Information
Curious to learn more about ketamine? This guide includes comprehensive ketamine resources containing books, studies and more.

Ketamine Guide: Effects, Common Uses, Safety
Our ultimate guide to ketamine has everything you need to know about this “dissociative anesthetic” and how it is being studied for depression treatment.

Ketamine for Depression: A Mental Health Breakthrough
While antidepressants work for some, many others find no relief. Read to learn about the therapeutic uses of ketamine for depression.

Ketamine for Addiction: Treatments Offering Hope
New treatments are offering hope to individuals suffering from addiction diseases. Read to learn how ketamine for addiction is providing breakthrough results.

Microdosing Ketamine & Common Dosages Explained
Microdosing, though imperceivable, is showing to have many health benefits–here is everything you want to know about microdosing ketamine.

How to Ease a Ketamine Comedown
Knowing what to expect when you come down from ketamine can help integrate the experience to gain as much value as possible.

How to Store Ketamine: Best Practices
Learn the best ways how to store ketamine, including the proper temperature and conditions to maximize how long ketamine lasts when stored.

How To Buy Ketamine: Is There Legal Ketamine Online?
Learn exactly where it’s legal to buy ketamine, and if it’s possible to purchase legal ketamine on the internet.

How Long Does Ketamine Stay in Your System?
How long does ketamine stay in your system? Are there lasting effects on your body? Read to discover the answers!

How Ketamine is Made: Everything You Need to Know
Ever wonder how to make Ketamine? Read our guide to learn everything you need to know about the procedures of how Ketamine is made.

Colorado on Ketamine: First Responders Waiver Programs
Fallout continues after Elijah McClain. Despite opposing recommendations from some city council, Colorado State Health panel recommends the continued use of ketamine by medics for those demonstrating “excited delirium” or “extreme agitation”.

Types of Ketamine: Learn the Differences & Uses for Each
Learn about the different types of ketamine and what they are used for—and what type might be right for you. Read now to find out!

Kitty Flipping: When Ketamine and Molly Meet
What is it, what does it feel like, and how long does it last? Read to explore the mechanics of kitty flipping.

MDMA & Ecstasy Guide: Effects, Common Uses, Safety
Our ultimate guide to MDMA has everything you want to know about Ecstasy from how it was developed in 1912 to why it’s being studied today.

How To Get the Most out of Taking MDMA as a Couple
Taking MDMA as a couple can lead to exciting experiences. Read here to learn how to get the most of of this love drug in your relationship.

Common MDMA Dosage & Microdosing Explained
Microdosing, though imperceivable, is showing to have many health benefits–here is everything you want to know about microdosing MDMA.

Having Sex on MDMA: What You Need to Know
MDMA is known as the love drug… Read our guide to learn all about sex on MDMA and why it is beginning to makes its way into couple’s therapy.

How MDMA is Made: Common Procedures Explained
Ever wonder how to make MDMA? Read our guide to learn everything you need to know about the procedures of how MDMA is made.

Hippie Flipping: When Shrooms and Molly Meet
What is it, what does it feel like, and how long does it last? Explore the mechanics of hippie flipping and how to safely experiment.

How Cocaine is Made: Common Procedures Explained
Ever wonder how to make cocaine? Read our guide to learn everything you need to know about the procedures of how cocaine is made.

A Christmas Sweater with Santa and Cocaine
This week, Walmart came under fire for a “Let it Snow” Christmas sweater depicting Santa with lines of cocaine. Columbia is not merry about it.

Ultimate Cocaine Guide: Effects, Common Uses, Safety
This guide covers what you need to know about Cocaine, including common effects and uses, legality, safety precautions and top trends today.

NEWS: An FDA-Approved Cocaine Nasal Spray
The FDA approved a cocaine nasal spray called Numbrino, which has raised suspicions that the pharmaceutical company, Lannett Company Inc., paid off the FDA..

The Ultimate Guide to Cannabis Bioavailability
What is bioavailability and how can it affect the overall efficacy of a psychedelic substance? Read to learn more.

Cannabis Research Explains Sociability Behaviors
New research by Dr. Giovanni Marsicano shows social behavioral changes occur as a result of less energy available to the neurons. Read here to learn more.

The Cannabis Shaman
If recreational and medical use of marijuana is becoming accepted, can the spiritual use as well? Experiential journalist Rak Razam interviews Hamilton Souther, founder of the 420 Cannabis Shamanism movement…

Cannabis Guide: Effects, Common Uses, Safety
Our ultimate guide to Cannabis has everything you want to know about this popular substances that has psychedelic properties.

Cannabis and Ayahuasca: Mixing Entheogenic Plants
Cannabis and Ayahuasca: most people believe they shouldn’t be mixed. Read this personal experience peppered with thoughts from a procannabis Peruvian Shaman.

CBD-Rich Cannabis Versus Single-Molecule CBD
A ground-breaking study has documented the superior therapeutic properties of whole plant Cannabis extract as compared to synthetic cannabidiol (CBD), challenging the medical-industrial complex’s notion that “crude” botanical preparations are less effective than single-molecule compounds.

Cannabis Has Always Been a Medicine
Modern science has already confirmed the efficacy of cannabis for most uses described in the ancient medical texts, but prohibitionists still claim that medical cannabis is “just a ruse.”

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