Travels With My Aunt: Part I

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You will think, perhaps, that I am too confidential and communicative of
my own private history. It may be so. The fact is, I place myself at a distance
of fifteen or twenty years ahead of this time, and suppose myself writing to
those who will be interested about me hereafter; and wishing to have some
record of a time, the entire history of which no one can know but myself, I do
it as fully as I am able with the efforts I am now capable of making.

Thomas De Quincey: Confessions of an
English Opium Eater
(1822).

 

In the spring of 1976, I chanced to sit in as accompanist with Allen
Ginsberg at a poetry performance. We went on to live, work, and travel together
periodically until his death in 1997. A couple of years ago, as I was finishing
a book accounting my travels on the anarcho-punk scene, I began making notes
toward a memoir of Ginsberg and his milieu.

The project really goes back to our
first meetings, when Allen urged me to write my own history. This was the
mission he had shared with his first writer friend, Jack Kerouac. The Beats
made careers writing about themselves and their scene. In his middle years,
when I came to know him, Allen was still pushing the same project: you are
living history, you have to write it down.

At the time, I kept a diary, but
this writing is not a diary in the strict sense, it is rather a series of
scenes sketched from memory and presented in a more or less random sequence,
unstuck in time, like Billy Pilgrim.

 

*

I was twenty-one his fiftieth year. We met, two young men in the Jersey
barrens. I got sick, too much marijuana, he held my hand.

*

It's December 1980. Half way through a long tour, Allen Ginsberg, Peter
Orlovsky, and I are seated in the hanging tram that circles the German city of Wuppertal.
I'm writing in my diary.

–What you writing?

–I'm writing a book about us.

–What'll you call it?

Travels With My Aunt.

There was a touch of meanness in my answer. On long tours, nerves fray. Nevertheless he approved. You
have to write your own history. No one's going to do it for you.

I didn't know it at the time, but my years of traveling with Allen did
mirror Graham Greene's fictional account of an Englishman who doesn't venture
much beyond his town house garden until he meets an aunt who shows him her
world; I was an English immigrant who hadn't ventured much beyond the Garden
State until I met an older man who showed me his.

*

Peter has gone down to the far end of the platform to smoke. Not dressed for
Germany in
December, Allen and I pace and shuffle in the swirling snowfall, collars turned
up against the cold. A train roars in.

–Frankfurt, it's going to Frankfurt.

–We're not going to Frankfurt.

He flushes, yelling.

–It's going to Frankfurt! It's going to Frankfurt!

–We're not going to Frankfurt!

A few commuters straggle out. The train pulls away.

The snow stops. Stars appear. We pace, smoke, shuffle some more.

As our train arrives, an old man approaches and introduces himself. He has
recognized Allen. He says he is a professor of literature.

The prof takes a window seat, I sit to his right. Allen sits opposite me,
arranging his book bag, winding a mic cable around his cassette recorder.

–You have been traveling. You must not have heard the news.

–What news?

–John Lennon was killed last night.

Allen crumples forward and weeps an eerie, wordless dirge into the machine.

*

At
the start, our respective realities were worlds apart, but our differences kept
us engaged, and we came to know each other well. We began with a few things in common.
We were both, in various ways, outsiders: he the queer son of a refugee mother,
I an immigrant having difficulty adapting. We both knew what it was to struggle
to get by. Our taste in literature and music was the same, though he had a more
intricate knowledge of the one and I of the other, and that made us a match. He
used to say he was my poetry teacher and I his music teacher. What struck me
most during our first conversations was that although he was older than my
father, he spoke as I and my friends did. Allen had pioneered the argot and
attitude that I had adopted as my own. He had played a key role in
disseminating the synthesis of white boy gossip and Harlem street jive that my generation
assumed it had invented.

*

He seemed strange, except in his intelligence and his art. That
I understood. But the temper, for one thing, the roaring rage of it, was
something the like of which I had not experienced before. I remember being in a
downtown bar at some kind of party. The place was packed and, somewhat oddly
for a bar, brightly lit. There he encountered a man a bit older than himself,
and they exchanged barely a word and he flew into a deafening rage. I'd never
heard anything like it. It vibrated one's whole being like some catastrophic
event, like an avalanche. The whole room rumbled with it, then went silent, and
the guy fled, and Allen was instantly back to normal, and the bar chatter
started up again as if nothing had happened. Allen told me the guy had been
part of a plot organized by the mayor's office, under the Lindsay
administration, to get him arrested on trumped-up drug charges, a plant and
bust scheme.

The temper was a real problem for me, though I never got a full-on dose
of it. I did get brief shots. We'd be on stage somewhere in the early
days, and he'd want Peter to do a couple of poems, and me to do a song part way
through the show. And I just didn't want to do it, but I'd sing because he'd
bark at me if I refused. –Speak, poet! The strongest dose I ever got was in
the spring of 1989, when my girlfriend was having heroin withdrawal, and I went
to him to ask for codeine, which I knew he had in his medicine kit. "On
your knees!" he roared, "Suck my cock for your dope!" It was
part anger, part laughter, part despair. And he immediately went calm and said,
"you'll only get her back on, using, you know." He was right, of
course.

Whatever strangeness there was about him for my own strange kid
sensibilities, we worked through it. I loved the guy for half my life. The
novelty, the disjunctions were what was fresh about the relationship. So what
was he like? Or, as he would say "give me a for instance." He was fearless, let's
start there.

*

We're coming out of a restaurant in Kassel
and suddenly he yells "NOOOO!" and flings himself into a crowd of men. They are
about to beat a guy up — a queer
bashing — he'd seen it and understood in a flash what was about to happen and
he didn't hesitate. The gang is stunned stock still. They disperse.

*

Fearlessness doesn't really describe it. It was faith in his own experience
and moral intelligence, exacerbated by a fascination with death. This was not a
guy with a lot of self-doubt. And it wasn't blind faith. He had tremendous
clarity. He understood himself because he'd worked at it and paid for it in
spades. He'd seen his mother go mad and had feared for his own sanity and had
spent a year in the bug house and been analyzed to hell and back and had taken
every drug under the sun and come through it all wiser. He'd been wrong, in the
sense of not fitting the standard mold of American manhood, in so many ways
over so many years, that he'd had to come through it or die, and he did come
through it. In his poem America,
he said "you made me want to be a saint." He had to become a saint. It was that or go mad.

*

He
was frugal. his father kept two sons and a mad wife in a series of
cheap apartments on a teacher's salary. The money, such as there was, went to doctors. When Naomi was in the various
hospitals, her men worried together in the same bed. I see Louie comforting the boys. Ruth Etting is on the radio singing, "Poverty may come to me it's true, but what care I, say, I'll get by, as long as I have you."

Everything
is saved. Plastic shopping bags are stashed in the pantry, saved to wrap books,
photographs, manuscripts and files for goings too and fro. Brown paper sacks are kept to
preserve bread. The tin box on the counter is full of small brown bundles; you
don't throw bread away. Shopping lists, laundry receipts are archive material.
You have to write your own history.

 

*

We
go to Eastern
Europe.
Our gigs are booked through the US Information Service, a cultural exchange
agency run by the State Department. I call it CIA lite. Our American contacts
in Warsaw are all embassy
officials. One, a pleasant, gray-haired guy who wears tennis sweaters and
loafers, is a spy — it's a standing joke. At one point the embassy throws a
party and we are introduced to various persons of importance — the head of
state radio, the head of state television, the head of state publishing. Next
day, a US official asks if we
want to meet "the underground." We are driven to a vacant apartment and told to
wait. We are picked up and driven to another vacant apartment across town and
told to wait. Finally we are driven to a loft in the center of Warsaw. Here we meet the
underground. They are the same people we had met the day before at the embassy,
plus a few fugitives who live at the loft. A couple of years later, the revolution
was announced because it was no longer possible to present the system and the underground as opposing entities. The black market had become the economy.

 

*

Allen
is a member of the PEN Club's Freedom to Write committee. While traveling, he investigates situations of censorship. We have
heard that the editor of the Solidarity newspaper has been jailed, is ill, and
is not receiving proper care. We march into the military prison, present our
PEN credentials, and demand to see the prisoner. The officer in charge is furious,
red faced, beside himself. We are not admitted.

*

I
arrive at Allen's, let myself in, and meet Gregory Corso. He
strikes a boxing stance and says, "show me your hands!," the words bent
into a peculiar music by his toothlessness. I hold out my hands, palms up. He
says "you look like puckin Saint Prancis. You're gonna get yr ass kicked!"

This is the standard
greeting. You just have to ride it out. His follow-up routine is

–Are
you a poet?

The
young respondent typically hedges.

–Are
you a poet or not? If you are a poet, you should say so.

–Yes.
I'm a poet.

–So
tell me a poem.

More
hedging.

–You're
a poet and you can't puckin tell me a poem? Listen to this. A star is as far
as the eye can see and as
near as my eye is to me.

*

Owsley comes by the apartment and drops off a large jar of clear liquid.
Over a period of months, once a week or so, we open the fridge and
stand there, looking at the jar on the top shelf among the left-overs.

–Are we going to do it?

Are we going to do it in a 100-square-foot slum kitchen in stifling New York August? No thanks. Been there done that. We parcel it out to visitors.

*

I
play a string of gigs in Scandinavia with the Fugs, and then
fly to Macedonia to meet Allen at the
Struga festival. They're going to give him this year's laurel crown. The flight
from the capital into the mountains is all nervous men with moustaches. As the plane
taxis for takeoff, they all light up. They smoke all the way to Struga and
applaud when the plane lands. At the luggage claim, I am approached by two
beautiful young women and an older man, presumably their father. He asks if I
am Steve from the United States. I say yes, and am
warmly welcomed by all. Follow me, he says. Just then, two young men introduce
themselves as the festival guys come to pick me up. Apparently there was
another American Steve on the flight. I sometimes imagine how it might have been to
drive off into the mountains with pops, marry one of the girls, and spend the
rest of my days tending a vineyard. As it happened, I was driven to a hotel on
a lake where, strangely, I find the lower east side poet crew in the bar. Alan Ansen is in from Athens. His luggage has been
lost and he spends several days ripening in a frayed, too-small black suit.

We
are mindful of the recent nuclear accident at Chernobyl, but I have the sense of the helplessness of the people to avoid contamination,
and let my guard down. What, not swim in the lake, not eat and drink? We are
told that the nuclear contamination will wash off this year's produce, but will
be inside next year's. Berries, mushrooms, and deer meat are off menus all over
Europe.

Suomo,
a drum maker, tells us that he and his children had been in the yard of his
house in eastern Poland. It was a warm, clear
day and the children were playing naked in the grass. Suddenly, he said, he felt
a fine drizzle coming from a cloudless sky and, looking up at the treetops, saw the
leaves curling up like clenched fists. He hurried the
children inside and called various authorities, but no one could explain what
was going on. Within a couple of hours, medical teams were going door-to-door handing
out iodine tablets. Later, Allen and I sit in the airport writing a song about nuclear melt down as sullen police deconstruct our luggage.

*

We have an afternoon off in Philadelphia
and decide to go to the movies. Woody Allen's got a new film out. Al laughs at odd times. An ordinary scene of a guy
getting into a taxi is somehow hilariously funny. It's as if he's operating on
a different frequency from everyone else. There's something child-like about
it, like I'm there with my seven-year-old son and have to explain the jokes. Later,
we go to see a new movie of La Traviata, and he sings the overture, waving his
arms about, punching the air. He can't contain himself.

*

I take him to meet my parents. On the bus out to Jersey, I tell him that the local iron mines produced cannon
balls for Washington's artillery.
He begins to write the poem Garden State. After dinner, he puts his
cigarette out on his plate. I see my brother think, "the barbarian American."
We pile into my mother's enormous blue Plymouth
and drive the couple of miles to Greystone mental hospital. Inside the gate, we cruise up the long smooth blacktop between acres of perfect lawn. He says, "this is where I used to sit with my
mother," and he breaks down, the sensitive kid picnicking with mad Naomi,
smiling, trying to act like everything is fine, and the great man weeping in
the back seat of the absurd vehicle.

Generosity. That night, we are to give a performance at the local county college. My
whole family is in the audience. I'm afraid he'll read his new poem about dirty sex, but backstage, as we're preparing to go on, he hands me his books. –You pick the
program tonight.

*

Generosity again. I have a series of recording sessions in Chelsea.
One night, after a fourteen-hour session, about 2
a.m., I'm taking the A Train uptown to my place in Washington
Heights. Next to me, leaning
against the seat are two gig bags — my bass and my guitar. On the seat is my
briefcase. Like an idiot, I have my face buried in a newspaper. At 125th
St., a kid comes out of nowhere, grabs the bass and dashes into the next car, I
stand up to take off after him as another kid comes from the other direction
and runs off with my guitar. I turn to pursue him and someone shouts "your
briefcase!" In a flash I know the charts for the sessions are worth more
than the guitars and I hesitate. The train stays in the station, doors open,
and I know I'm not going to get in a fight with a couple of kids in the middle
of the night in Harlem.

Next day I tell Allen what happened. He says, –The only way you're going to
get over it is to replace the instruments. What'll it cost? –About a thousand.
–OK.

This is not a guy who makes a lot of money, and he's replacing my
instruments. Next day I go to Manny's and feel a lot better.

*

His voice on the message
machine: Allen Ginsberg
Beth Israel Hospital.
Important. Please call back as soon as possible. If this is the wrong number,
please leave a message for Steven Taylor at Naropa, at the poetics office,
thank you.

I call back and he says –liver biopsy, hepatitis C, cancer
untreatable with chemicals or surgery. I feel equanimity, I guess all those
years of Buddhist practice paid off. The doctor says four five months but I
feel maybe one or two.

He says carry on! I always loved you. He says I'll miss you, and I register
how odd that sounds. I'll miss you too, I say.

Three hours later in a synagogue basement in Denver
I crack a dusty old volume untouched for generations and read.


There is nothing under heaven, saving a true friend
unto which my heart doth lean. And this dear freedom hath begotten me this
peace, that I mourn not for that end which must be, nor spend one wish to have
one minute added to the uncertain date of my years.

 

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How Much Does LSD Cost? When shopping around for that magical psychedelic substance, there can be many uncertainties when new to buying LSD. You may be wondering how much does LSD cost? In this article, we will discuss what to expect when purchasing LSD on the black market, what forms LSD is sold in, and the standard breakdown of buying LSD in quantity.   Navy Use of LSD on the Dark Web The dark web is increasingly popular for purchasing illegal substances. The US Navy has now noticed this trend with their staff. Read to learn more.   Having Sex on LSD: What You Need to Know Can you have sex on LSD? Read our guide to learn everything about sex on acid, from lowered inhibitions to LSD users quotes on sex while tripping.   A Drug That Switches off an LSD Trip A pharmaceutical company is developing an “off-switch” drug for an LSD trip, in the case that a bad trip can happen. Some would say there is no such thing.   Queen of Hearts: An Interview with Liz Elliot on Tim Leary and LSD The history of psychedelia, particularly the British experience, has been almost totally written by men. Of the women involved, especially those who were in the thick of it, little has been written either by or about them. A notable exception is Liz Elliot.   LSD Guide: Effects, Common Uses, Safety LSD, Lysergic acid diethylamide, or just acid is one of the most important psychedelics ever discovered. What did history teach us?   Microdosing LSD & Common Dosage Explained Microdosing, though imperceivable, is showing to have many health benefits–here is everything you want to know about microdosing LSD.   LSD Resources Curious to learn more about LSD? This guide includes comprehensive LSD resources containing books, studies and more.   LSD as a Spiritual Aid There is common consent that the evolution of mankind is paralleled by the increase and expansion of consciousness. From the described process of how consciousness originates and develops, it becomes evident that its growth depends on its faculty of perception. Therefore every means of improving this faculty should be used.   Legendary LSD Blotter Art: A Hidden Craftsmanship Have you ever heard of LSD blotter art? Explore the trippy world of LSD art and some of the top artists of LSD blotter art.   LSD and Exercise: Does it Work? LSD and exercise? Learn why high-performing athletes are taking hits of LSD to improve their overall potential.   Jan Bastiaans Treated Holocaust Survivors with LSD Dutch psychiatrist, Jan Bastiaans administered LSD-assisted therapy to survivors of the Holocaust. A true war hero and pioneer of psychedelic-therapy.   LSD and Spiritual Awakening I give thanks for LSD, which provided the opening that led me to India in 1971 and brought me to Neem Karoli Baba, known as Maharajji. Maharajji is described by the Indians as a “knower of hearts.”   How LSD is Made: Everything You Need to Know Ever wonder how to make LSD? Read our guide to learn everything you need to know about the procedures of how LSD is made.   How to Store LSD: Best Practices Learn the best way to store LSD, including the proper temperature and conditions to maximize how long LSD lasts when stored.   Bicycle Day: The Discovery of LSD Every year on April 19th, psychonauts join forces to celebrate Bicycle Day. Learn about the famous day when Albert Hoffman first discovered the effects of LSD.   Cary Grant: A Hollywood Legend On LSD Cary Grant was a famous actor during the 1930’s-60’s But did you know Grant experimented with LSD? Read our guide to learn more.   Albert Hofmann: LSD — My Problem Child Learn about Albert Hofmann and his discovery of LSD, along with the story of Bicycle Day and why it marks a historic milestone.   Babies are High: What Does LSD Do To Your Brain What do LSD and babies have in common? Researchers at the Imperial College in London discover that an adult’s brain on LSD looks like a baby’s brain.   1P LSD: Effects, Benefits, Safety Explained 1P LSD is an analogue of LSD and homologue of ALD-25. Here is everything you want to know about 1P LSD and how it compares to LSD.   Francis Crick, DNA & LSD Type ‘Francis Crick LSD’ into Google, and the result will be 30,000 links. Many sites claim that Crick (one of the two men responsible for discovering the structure of DNA), was either under the influence of LSD at the time of his revelation or used the drug to help with his thought processes during his research. Is this true?   What Happens If You Overdose on LSD? A recent article presented three individuals who overdosed on LSD. Though the experience was unpleasant, the outcomes were remarkably positive.

The Ayahuasca Experience
Ayahuasca is both a medicine and a visionary aid. You can employ ayahuasca for physical, mental, emotional and spiritual repair, and you can engage with the power of ayahuasca for deeper insight and realization. If you consider attainment of knowledge in the broadest perspective, you can say that at all times, ayahuasca heals.

 

Trippy Talk: Meet Ayahuasca with Sitaramaya Sita and PlantTeachers
Sitaramaya Sita is a spiritual herbalist, pusangera, and plant wisdom practitioner formally trained in the Shipibo ayahuasca tradition.

 

The Therapeutic Value of Ayahuasca
My best description of the impact of ayahuasca is that it’s a rocket boost to psychospiritual growth and unfolding, my professional specialty during my thirty-five years of private practice.

 

Microdosing Ayahuasca: Common Dosage Explained
What is ayahuasca made of and what is considered a microdose? Explore insights with an experienced Peruvian brewmaster and learn more about this practice.

 

Ayahuasca Makes Neuron Babies in Your Brain
Researchers from Beckley/Sant Pau Research Program have shared the latest findings in their study on the effects of ayahuasca on neurogenesis.

 

The Fatimiya Sufi Order and Ayahuasca
In this interview, the founder of the Fatimiya Sufi Order,  N. Wahid Azal, discusses the history and uses of plant medicines in Islamic and pre-Islamic mystery schools.

 

Consideration Ayahuasca for Treatment of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
Research indicates that ayahuasca mimics mechanisms of currently accepted treatments for PTSD. In order to understand the implications of ayahuasca treatment, we need to understand how PTSD develops.

 

Brainwaves on Ayahuasca: A Waking Dream State
In a study researchers shared discoveries showing ingredients found in Ayahuasca impact the brainwaves causing a “waking dream” state.

 

Cannabis and Ayahuasca: Mixing Entheogenic Plants
Cannabis and Ayahuasca: most people believe they shouldn’t be mixed. Read this personal experience peppered with thoughts from a pro cannabis Peruvian Shaman.

 

Ayahuasca Retreat 101: Everything You Need to Know to Brave the Brew
Ayahuasca has been known to be a powerful medicinal substance for millennia. However, until recently, it was only found in the jungle. Word of its deeply healing and cleansing properties has begun to spread across the world as many modern, Western individuals are seeking spiritual, mental, emotional, and physical well-being. More ayahuasca retreat centers are emerging in the Amazon and worldwide to meet the demand.

 

Ayahuasca Helps with Grief
A new study published in psychopharmacology found that ayahuasca helped those suffering from the loss of a loved one up to a year after treatment.

 

Ayahuasca Benefits: Clinical Improvements for Six Months
Ayahuasca benefits can last six months according to studies. Read here to learn about the clinical improvements from drinking the brew.

 

Ayahuasca Culture: Indigenous, Western, And The Future
Ayahuasca has been use for generations in the Amazon. With the rise of retreats and the brew leaving the rainforest how is ayahuasca culture changing?

 

Ayahuasca Guide: Effects, Common Uses, Safety
The Amazonian brew, Ayahuasca has a long history and wide use. Read our guide to learn all about the tea from its beginnings up to modern-day interest.

 

Ayahuasca and the Godhead: An Interview with Wahid Azal of the Fatimiya Sufi Order
Wahid Azal, a Sufi mystic of The Fatimiya Sufi Order and an Islamic scholar, talks about entheogens, Sufism, mythology, and metaphysics.

 

Ayahuasca and the Feminine: Women’s Roles, Healing, Retreats, and More
Ayahuasca is lovingly called “grandmother” or “mother” by many. Just how feminine is the brew? Read to learn all about women and ayahuasca.

What Is the Standard of Care for Ketamine Treatments?
Ketamine therapy is on the rise in light of its powerful results for treatment-resistant depression. But, what is the current standard of care for ketamine? Read to find out.

What Is Dissociation and How Does Ketamine Create It?
Dissociation can take on multiple forms. So, what is dissociation like and how does ketamine create it? Read to find out.

Having Sex on Ketamine: Getting Physical on a Dissociative
Curious about what it could feel like to have sex on a dissociate? Find out all the answers in our guide to sex on ketamine.

Special K: The Party Drug
Special K refers to Ketamine when used recreationally. Learn the trends as well as safety information around this substance.

Kitty Flipping: When Ketamine and Molly Meet
What is it, what does it feel like, and how long does it last? Read to explore the mechanics of kitty flipping.

Ketamine vs. Esketamine: 3 Important Differences Explained
Ketamine and esketamine are used to treat depression. But what’s the difference between them? Read to learn which one is right for you: ketamine vs. esketamine.

Guide to Ketamine Treatments: Understanding the New Approach
Ketamine is becoming more popular as more people are seeing its benefits. Is ketamine a fit? Read our guide for all you need to know about ketamine treatments.

Ketamine Treatment for Eating Disorders
Ketamine is becoming a promising treatment for various mental health conditions. Read to learn how individuals can use ketamine treatment for eating disorders.

Ketamine Resources, Studies, and Trusted Information
Curious to learn more about ketamine? This guide includes comprehensive ketamine resources containing books, studies and more.

Ketamine Guide: Effects, Common Uses, Safety
Our ultimate guide to ketamine has everything you need to know about this “dissociative anesthetic” and how it is being studied for depression treatment.

Ketamine for Depression: A Mental Health Breakthrough
While antidepressants work for some, many others find no relief. Read to learn about the therapeutic uses of ketamine for depression.

Ketamine for Addiction: Treatments Offering Hope
New treatments are offering hope to individuals suffering from addiction diseases. Read to learn how ketamine for addiction is providing breakthrough results.

Microdosing Ketamine & Common Dosages Explained
Microdosing, though imperceivable, is showing to have many health benefits–here is everything you want to know about microdosing ketamine.

How to Ease a Ketamine Comedown
Knowing what to expect when you come down from ketamine can help integrate the experience to gain as much value as possible.

How to Store Ketamine: Best Practices
Learn the best ways how to store ketamine, including the proper temperature and conditions to maximize how long ketamine lasts when stored.

How To Buy Ketamine: Is There Legal Ketamine Online?
Learn exactly where it’s legal to buy ketamine, and if it’s possible to purchase legal ketamine on the internet.

How Long Does Ketamine Stay in Your System?
How long does ketamine stay in your system? Are there lasting effects on your body? Read to discover the answers!

How Ketamine is Made: Everything You Need to Know
Ever wonder how to make Ketamine? Read our guide to learn everything you need to know about the procedures of how Ketamine is made.

Colorado on Ketamine: First Responders Waiver Programs
Fallout continues after Elijah McClain. Despite opposing recommendations from some city council, Colorado State Health panel recommends the continued use of ketamine by medics for those demonstrating “excited delirium” or “extreme agitation”.

Types of Ketamine: Learn the Differences & Uses for Each
Learn about the different types of ketamine and what they are used for—and what type might be right for you. Read now to find out!

Kitty Flipping: When Ketamine and Molly Meet
What is it, what does it feel like, and how long does it last? Read to explore the mechanics of kitty flipping.

MDMA & Ecstasy Guide: Effects, Common Uses, Safety
Our ultimate guide to MDMA has everything you want to know about Ecstasy from how it was developed in 1912 to why it’s being studied today.

How To Get the Most out of Taking MDMA as a Couple
Taking MDMA as a couple can lead to exciting experiences. Read here to learn how to get the most of of this love drug in your relationship.

Common MDMA Dosage & Microdosing Explained
Microdosing, though imperceivable, is showing to have many health benefits–here is everything you want to know about microdosing MDMA.

Having Sex on MDMA: What You Need to Know
MDMA is known as the love drug… Read our guide to learn all about sex on MDMA and why it is beginning to makes its way into couple’s therapy.

How MDMA is Made: Common Procedures Explained
Ever wonder how to make MDMA? Read our guide to learn everything you need to know about the procedures of how MDMA is made.

Hippie Flipping: When Shrooms and Molly Meet
What is it, what does it feel like, and how long does it last? Explore the mechanics of hippie flipping and how to safely experiment.

How Cocaine is Made: Common Procedures Explained
Ever wonder how to make cocaine? Read our guide to learn everything you need to know about the procedures of how cocaine is made.

A Christmas Sweater with Santa and Cocaine
This week, Walmart came under fire for a “Let it Snow” Christmas sweater depicting Santa with lines of cocaine. Columbia is not merry about it.

Ultimate Cocaine Guide: Effects, Common Uses, Safety
This guide covers what you need to know about Cocaine, including common effects and uses, legality, safety precautions and top trends today.

NEWS: An FDA-Approved Cocaine Nasal Spray
The FDA approved a cocaine nasal spray called Numbrino, which has raised suspicions that the pharmaceutical company, Lannett Company Inc., paid off the FDA..

The Ultimate Guide to Cannabis Bioavailability
What is bioavailability and how can it affect the overall efficacy of a psychedelic substance? Read to learn more.

Cannabis Research Explains Sociability Behaviors
New research by Dr. Giovanni Marsicano shows social behavioral changes occur as a result of less energy available to the neurons. Read here to learn more.

The Cannabis Shaman
If recreational and medical use of marijuana is becoming accepted, can the spiritual use as well? Experiential journalist Rak Razam interviews Hamilton Souther, founder of the 420 Cannabis Shamanism movement…

Cannabis Guide: Effects, Common Uses, Safety
Our ultimate guide to Cannabis has everything you want to know about this popular substances that has psychedelic properties.

Cannabis and Ayahuasca: Mixing Entheogenic Plants
Cannabis and Ayahuasca: most people believe they shouldn’t be mixed. Read this personal experience peppered with thoughts from a procannabis Peruvian Shaman.

CBD-Rich Cannabis Versus Single-Molecule CBD
A ground-breaking study has documented the superior therapeutic properties of whole plant Cannabis extract as compared to synthetic cannabidiol (CBD), challenging the medical-industrial complex’s notion that “crude” botanical preparations are less effective than single-molecule compounds.

Cannabis Has Always Been a Medicine
Modern science has already confirmed the efficacy of cannabis for most uses described in the ancient medical texts, but prohibitionists still claim that medical cannabis is “just a ruse.”

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