shizo-shamanic genious. excruciating chronic pain. help me for the love of god. can i have a blog? ask me for some writing.
alien phenomenon, entheogenic consciousness, ayahuasca, McLuhan, integrating indigenous wisdom, beat literature, shamanism, tv and alcohol (NOT!), strategizing global transformation, yoga, ancient philosophy, continental philosophy, fringe anthropology, sustainable aggriculture, viruses, Jung, Jesus, oh yeah and fucking!
got this autistic savant thing going on, only the shortcomings coresponding to my amazing gifts seem only perceptable to me. i am totally fucked up though, trust me. i think three-dimentionally when other people are thinking in 2d, and i am in exceptional metabolic health, but my skelletal/muscular system is badly damaged around my neck and totally out of balance and harmony throughout my body. i am in excruciating pain, pretty much all the time. i am almost broke, i have been homeless, and i cannot seem to get a grip. i have serious metaphysical problems too, but they are mostly unlanguageable.
i am presently at work utilizing my hurculian intellect to round up some survival cash in the online poker arena. if i just had a nice place to stay, some community support, and a massage therapist/yogically inclined girl friend i could be healing the planet instead outsmarting people for their money.
when mckenna theorized about portions of our mentally-ill as our cultures abused and unrealized shamans, i think “that is me!” ayahauaca has become a part of who i am. i feel called to re-invent the shaman role and bring other people through the experience. i have attained deep personal healing of heart, mind, and metabolism through ayahuasca, but this spine injury is a seperate thing that ayahuasca can’t heal. it has been getting worse and worse for so long. it is destroying my body and my will to live. help please
i’ve been writing as though these were my last days on earth. read it! that web page link should take you to my tribe.net profile where i’ve been posting my work in my blog. if you are a realitysandwich administrator, let me know if you’d like to adapt any of it for publication on the site, and/or if i can have a blog set up on here.