Isis Aquarian — On the High Road With Father Yod

Introduction by Caroline Ryder

On March 11, a documentary about the Source Family, one of the most
compelling hippie communities to emerge from 1970s Los Angeles, will premiere
as part of SXSW's documentary competition. The film is one of only eight
accepted submissions from more than 800, and represents the culmination of
years of work by filmmakers Jodi Wille and Maria Demopoulos. Working alongside
them was Isis Aquarian, former Source Family member, and co-author of the 2007
book, The Source: The Untold Story of
Father Yod, Ya Ho Wha 13, and The Source Family. Diminutive in stature but
formidable in presence, Isis is a feisty 70-year-old who embraces her
"cronehood" while counting among her friends an eclectic cross section of
decidedly young writers, artists, fashion designers, graffiti writers,
musicians and spiritual seekers, all of them drawn to the Source and its revolutionary
prescription for New Age living.

Isis was right-hand woman to the Source's leader, a charismatic visionary
named Father Yod, or "Ya Ho Wha". She remains as devoted to him today as when
she first fell in love with him in the 1970s when, driven by instinct alone,
she gave up her life as the wife of a celebrated rock photographer and became
part of the Source Family experiment. She took on an Aquarian name, and earned herself
the nickname Dragon Lady among her new brothers and sisters, thanks to her somewhat
aggressive compulsion to serve and protect her leader.  

Father Yod (or simply "Father") was a former stuntman and
Jujutsu expert who underwent his spiritual initiation under Yogi Bhajan. He
gave up his earth name Jim Baker and assumed a new identity, that of spiritual
teacher. Like so many of LA's gurus, Father Yod had a natural affinity for the rock
'n roll lifestyle — during the Source Family's heyday, Yod had 14 "spiritual wives",
a Rolls Royce, and a psych rock band called Ya Ho Wha 13, which he fronted. That,
combined with his advanced knowledge of Qabbalah, yoga, Tantra, Western
esotericism and eastern mysticism, drew nearly 140 disciples to him, his
spiritual sons and daughters who lived and learned with him in a chateau-style mansion
in Laurel Canyon. There, they adhered to a strictly vegetarian lifestyle, embracing
Father Yod's experimental vision for healthy, communal Aquarian living.

The Family remained in Hollywood until tragic circumstances (and the
increasingly aggressive attentions of the local authorities) resulted in the
entire family moving to Hawaii. Father Yod's death in a freak hang-gliding
accident in August 1975 deprived the Family of its uniquely powerful patriarch,
and their collective dream of a self-sustaining Aquarian community based in
"dome" villages slowly dissolved. The family disintegrated and might have faded
from memory were it not for 2009's book, which sparked a contemporary resurgence
of interest in Father Yod, and saw the emergence of a small but enthusiastic
new band of Aquarians, enamored with the Source Family and its beautiful,
colorfully-garbed utopians.

In this interview Isis Aquarian talks to writer and comedienne Elissa
Hawke about her journey to Ya Ho Wha, and why Father Yod remains as intriguing
a figure today as he was 40 years ago.

The
Source screens at SXSW on SUNDAY, MARCH 11, 2012 1:15PM – 3:00PM at the Vimeo Theater; TUESDAY, MARCH 13, 2012, 11:00AM
-12:45PM at the Alamo Lamar C, and FRIDAY, MARCH 16, 2012, 6:45PM –
8:30PM at the Alamo Lamar B.

Elissa Hawke:
Isis, for something that happened around forty years ago, how has it
impacted your life?

Isis: Well it never left my life so it's still an ongoing very active
thread…with most of us. Everybody has got a different view, a different
reality, because everyone had a different relationship with Father, and they
did after the Family, all processing it in a different way. I knew Jim Baker before he
started The Source. I was the only one in The Family that

knew him before he
started The Source restaurant.

He had three restaurants, 'The Aware Inn', 'The
Old World' and then, 'The Source'. I befriended him and his wife at the
time, Dora. I liked Jim Baker, but I knew that was not our time, that was not
our connection, and I ended up going on and becoming engaged to a rock
photographer, Ron Raffaelli.

I
had lost touch with Jim for maybe a year and a half. We were shooting a Jesus Christ Superstar poster, and he
(Raffaelli) said "I need a lot of Jesuses".  I said "I know where we can
go, my friend Jim Baker just opened up 'The Source' and I hear they're all
wearing robes and long hair." So I went down to get some models for the poster.

I
hadn't seen Jim Baker in a long time. In the meantime he had started his
spiritual crossover with Yogi Bhajan and became a very devout student of
the yogis.  He had gone to India with Yogi Bhajan and eventually left
that Eastern vibration to form his own Communal Family and merge it more with a
Western energy,  so when I re-saw him at The Source (restaurant), I mean,
he looked like Moses…he was no longer Jim Baker.  I remember thinking… 'Oh
my God I'm home. This is my time. This is what I have been waiting for.'

I
had tried to connect with something, spiritually. Buddhism, the yogis, Nam-myoho-renge-kyo, just something, somebody
to give me something…and about the closest I came to anything was Manly P.
Hall's book, The Secret Teachings Of All
Ages.

My
dad was a Colonel in the Air Force. When I left home I went to Washington D.C
and ended up working in the White House, as an aide under Johnson. So right
away I had a very high-class social life. In D.C. I came to a point where I
knew I did not want to marry a Senator, so I went to New York and met Andy
Warhol, Salvador Dali. I just really hit that whole social scene.

Then
I started hearing about something called 'the flower child', 'the hippies' out
in L.A. This guy I was with had a cousin that kept coming in with her little
blond hair, and her little sundress, and perky smile and I was going 'wait a
minute… there's something happening in L.A, and I wanna go see what it is.'

So you turned your back on a well-paid job in the White House to join the
Source?

It had taken me as far as it could take me, and I knew it was done so I moved
on. I was on a journey. On my vision quest although I didn't know it. I was
highly-protected apparently, by my guides, because I could have fallen into
anything, so easily, and stayed there. Something just kept happening to move me
on.

From
childhood I can remember thinking very differently and seeing things
differently — experiencing a certain amount of the paranormal, without it being
too over-the-top, or too invasive. Just enough to let me know it was there
but it never became part of my life.  You have to be well prepared to handle
something like that. My Dad was an alcoholic, he was in the Service.

Did this develop your sensitivity, coming from that generation of war-wounded
men?

Exactly.

Were you constantly on
edge, waiting for that next scary unfolding of an alcoholic? 

It gives one street
smarts as they call it. That's when I decided never to be a victim and became a
very fearless person. Then at sixteen I had something of a near death
experience. It wasn't a complete, you know, 'go-through-the-tunnel-see-the-light'
type of thing, but, my car ran off into a ditch, as I had fallen asleep, and as
I woke up there was a man in the seat next to me. All of a sudden my car
was back on the road and he just looked at me, and then he left. I always
remembered him, I never knew who the man was but I did recognize him as being a
guide who had come to help me. I never talked about it, of course.

It's
one of those things. If you talk to people who have seen aliens or UFOs, it's
like, they know it happened but they're so shut down, that they don't even
think to talk about it. They get on with their lives, and every once in a
while, they'll go ‘Wait a minute…wow…that is serious. Something just happened'.
Eventually they might say something, but anyhow, for lack of a better word,
it's like ‘they' put a kind of a spell over you. You are not supposed to
remember.

I
always remembered what he looked like and who he was, and his 'etheric
footprint', his etheric residue, without knowing who he was. Many years later I
was at a Catholic bookstore and they had those cards with the saints on them,
and I was spinning the stand around looking for something, and here was
a card with Padre Pio on it, and I looked at it and I go 'that's who was
in the car with me.' Now the thing about Padre Pio is that Padre Pio was alive
at the time this happened, but one of the things he was known for, is appearing
and being in many places at any one time all over the world to people. So I was
so happy to know who it was. I'm a big fan of Padre Pio's at this point.

So.
I knew I was guided. I went through my twenties not really responsible, but I
made it out to L.A., found Jim Baker then Father as he was entering the
spiritual path, and just completely got aboard with it.

So when you went down to The Source Restaurant to find those Jesuses did you
run into Jim that day?

Yeah, I was looking for him.

And you asked "Can I have some of your Jesus people for a photo?"

Yeah, exactly right.

Was it a good reunion?

He just gave me a big hug and said
something like "welcome home" or "I was wondering when you were going to come
back around." And I was like ‘Wow. Yeah.'

I
just walked out on my life once again, everything. I couldn't take anything
with me because there was nothing I could take from that life that would have
fit. They were all wearing white. I didn't have anything like what they
were wearing.  For me it was a no-brainer. People have postulated — "you
can't just do that" and what I have figured out, is that I had cosmic help,
when it is time to experience a cross-over or the other realms and that door
opens, you either walk through it or you have higher help to walk you through
it.

He
was resonating at this frequency. I stepped in his frequency at the
right time that he was vibrating at the frequency that decoded my frequency,
that I had been waiting, all my life to have decoded.

I
was thinking 'what is going on here, what am I doing, who am I? Is this ever
going to get resolved?' and just waiting then it happen.

Do you think Jim had a
similar sort of epiphany seeing the yogi? Did he have mental wounds from the
war?

I think in one of his
first classes in front of the yogi his kundalini went off and he ended up in
the yogi's lap and when he came to he just cried for three days because he had
a very interesting past and he wasn't all that good in his past.

He
had hurt a lot of people. Even going through the war and killing people,
hurting a lot of women, his wives, he had done a lot of harm emotionally and he
was quite an egomaniac. So it all went and he did his cross-over really quick
also.

For you was it rebellion
against your parents?

No!

Were you angry? Were you
getting along fine with them?

It's not that I was getting
along with them.

So it had nothing to do
with fighting with them, more to do with finally finding something higher than
your average life?

It had to do with my
inner Godhood pushing me to the point I was supposed to be at to get on with
it.

I
got to that point when I stepped before him at the Source and got on with it,
and that was that. We picked up right where we left off many lifetimes ago.
Father confirmed that when he said "you always have my back in this work,
you've always been with me, you know, in the pyramids, whatever…and you're here
again". He made me the historian, the archive keeper, immediately.

He
made me the temple keeper and I was the High Priestess so that involved a lot
of roles I had with him. It gave a very authoritarian structure to my part
within The Family. These were agreements between us that were made before this
incarnation…we were supposed to do the work together again this lifetime.

I
was a little older than most of the people in The Source Family, there were a
few people who were older, but most of them were young kids. Remember, I'd
known Jim Baker.  I wasn't intimidated by him. I wasn't in shock and awe
and all that. Well actually OK, I was, but I would say more in honor and
respect.

I
became like his bull-dog. Every group has one, and I very quickly earned the
name Dragon Lady. I loved the name, I always resonated to it and I loved it and
I still love it. I still love being the dragon lady.

Dragon legacy has a very interesting lore and history behind it all.

Father
knew that I would protect and take care of things and he knew that forty years
later the legacy would be secured. We were, for the last thirty something years
what I would almost call flat-lined. We were almost dead.  We didn't even
have a heartbeat.

Then
we did the book (THE SOURCE – The Untold
Story of Father Yod, Ya Ho Wa 13 and The Source Family) and we started to
get a heartbeat and things started happening. The legacy has been saved and
secured I'm telling you right now Father Yod is being called a cult hero and
you know the younger generation get him, they get what we were about.

The
music has always maintained an underground following but now has exploded. Drag
City is remastering all the albums, all nine, but I also have lost music that I
just found in the archives, that have never been heard — that they are putting
out now.

His
morning meditation tapes are also now being released.  You don't have to
hear it from me, you don't have to hear it from anybody, you can hear it from
Father himself.

You
can time travel back to the real deal and the real time there and just hear it
direct from The Source, from him. You will hear how we lived as a family, how
we operated … it was a lot of fun.

We
laughed.  A lot.  I was the
one who started recording the classes and would follow him around with portable
tape recorder.

We
lived spiritual law over man's law and there are different rulings to that.

When
they were forming The Brotherhood of the Source, there was what we call The
Early Group coming in, then the early grouping started to call Jim 'Father' and
then he became our Spiritual Father. He morphed very quickly out of Jim Baker,
and was no longer Jim Baker when he became Father Yod.  He very clearly said to us one day, "I
am no longer Jim Baker". We all had our part and roles in this saga and he
often said we were helping 'midwife' him into his spiritual birth or Godhood. And
thus he was an example of how and what we also should be doing.

By
the way, not only did we give everything to Father when we came into Family,
but he gave everything he had to us, that included the Source restaurant. Jim
started the Source with Dora, his wife at the time from the Old World days. She
designed the daisy flower logo. They divorced and she moved back to France.

Anybody
at any point of this man's life, who ever thought they owned him, lost him.
Right from the beginning he moved on from every wife he ever had, his
children his situations, because he was on his evolutionary journey, and he had
to. People who came across his path were karmic, be it good or not. He had to
deal with it — that includes fourteen wives and a very large core family of
about 150 people living all together in one household. How did we do it?
Simple. We all were on the same program and attuned to the same frequency as a
whole, our diet our daily lives our beliefs and our workings as a family unit
with Father as the benevolent patriarchal/matriarchal head, he was both Father
and Mother to family. Our protocol was kindness, no hurt or harm intended to
anyone, love and wisdom in all things, honor and respect in our dealings and to
maintain the standard in all we did. We called it:  Life, Mind, Truth, Love, Spirit. Our cornerstone for the
master check list.

We
are now into the next evolution of mankind — evolving from man to a spiritual
being. We can't take the old programs and the old modus operandi of mankind and
evolve into our Godhood. It doesn't work. They have to be dropped.

So we have to remember
who we really are?

We watched him do that,
and evolve. He gave birth to his own Godhood and that's what we all need to do,
we have to birth our own Godhood. So he was an example.  He was God to us
to show us that part of our beingness. We are crossing over to a new evolutionary
process, a new frequency, a new time is upon us.

The
business was highly successful, with wildly popular, good food. I look at the
menu now and it looks so simple I think 'this was The Source Restaurant, you've
got to be kidding', because I remember back then it just seemed so extravagant.
We were the first vegetarian restaurant, on a high scale level. "Maintain the
Standard" was a sign we had over the kitchen door.

We
would bring to the house big crates of oranges, big crates of apples, big
crates of dates, big things of cottage cheese, big blocks of cheese. We ate
very well.

I
was the family administrator, but we all had roles. The Source Restaurant had
their managers, and the women at the house all had their duties. There was
order and organization in everything.

Why did you choose the
particular imagery and symbols for the restaurant sign, and to decorate your
vehicles, hubcaps and so on?

We had the freedom to do
it, that there was no other country in the world in the 70's that had the political
freedom to allow people to do what they want. With the symbols that we had from
the founding fathers who were Freemasons to begin with, were all proclaiming
that religious freedom to establish a new paradigm and a new way of being.

So
we got creative, and we would put things around for people to see, and express
ourselves, where we were at the time. We were very wealthy so we could do what
we wanted.

Would everybody
join in the mornings each day and have this meditation with Father, opening
themselves up, sharing ancient knowledge?

Sharing the Cosmos…it was
phenomenal, oh my God

Were there any judgments
about sexual freedom? Was there a fair bit of exploration between whoever felt
attracted?

There were protocols. We
had sexual freedom, within the protocol of what we were doing, and our protocol
was Tantra. There was a spiritual reason for what we were doing. We took sex,
drugs and rock and roll, and we put spirit into it — sex became Tantra, our
drugs became the sacred herb and we only did one hit in the morning and that
was it.  There were no other drugs, and our rock and roll became our
music. Always spontaneous, it was never rehearsed, it was directly
channeled and it's got the wisdom in it. 'Penetration' seems to be everyone's'
favorite.

I loved 'A Thousand
Sighs'

Oh that was 'The Savage Sons
Of Ya Ho Wa'. That was totally outrageous when we did that.

We
had fun you know. We had our own little thing happening. There were several
groupings of family bands and many solo musicians.

Why was it called 'Spirit
of '76'?

Spirit of '76 was the
founding fathers of America, 1776. We put up a flagpole, and we had the flag with
the 13 stars flying every day in our front yard in our mansion, it was
patriotism. We had all the symbols, the eagle, and the pyramids, the whole
founding fathers things.

He
would at times say, "the founding fathers, that was one of my most memorable incarnations",
the one he related to most. That was a very special time for him, that whole
time, the birthing of America, and he always felt very connected to it.

Were many in The Family
from these traditional military backgrounds?

This brings up a good
point, who knows… because, the trait of the 60's and 70's was no one cared
about your background it was the now that mattered and it was more on a soul to
soul level, it was also a trait of The Family — kids got to a point where they
were just walking out their doors and leaving home. They were leaving the
mind-control of their parents, their drugs, their prescription
pills, what they thought they wanted from you, which nobody was
going for, and everybody was hitchhiking to places like L.A. Nobody asked you
questions like how old you were, nobody asked anything like, what's your
family like? Nobody cared. We operated in the now and it only mattered what
happened from that point on.

People
would find a place to crash; that's how it became so open. It was a very
allowing, non-judgmental time, everybody had the opportunity to prove
themselves in the now. The vibration we all rode upon was Peace, Love,
Kindness, Freedom, Community, Dance, Song and wanting the Wisdom.

So it wasn't about where
you were from, but who you were?

Nobody even cared…I was
asked "Were there underage girls in The Family?" When we looked at each other
in The Family, we didn't see age, we were relating soul to soul, and a lot of
us, especially Father, was relating to us on a lot of levels of our past
times…like he would look at Aquariana and he would see Helen Of Troy. Whether
she was that or not, didn't matter. He didn't see a sixteen year old girl
off the L.A streets and wonder to himself 'wait a minute, now, is she
underage — 14 was the legal age in a lot of states and women at 13, when they
started their periods, were considered women in the old days'.

And
I will tell you right now that none of these girls/women came into the family
as virgins they had experienced the sexual revolution long before the family
time.

Nobody
had to do anything they didn't want to do, everybody had free will, but like I
said there was protocol within it, we had to be responsible spiritual beings in
our evolution —  that pretty much set us apart from a lot of what was happening
with the hippies and the communes. We weren't hippies and we weren't yogi-ites,
we came in that way but that's not who we were.

Lets get down to it…was
everybody fucking whoever, whenever?

No, it was whatever
anybody wanted to do with respect and honor and the proper protocol, you just
didn't nail someone on the steps going up the bedrooms.  We had actually,
areas that we set aside for privacy, for respect. And we didn't have orgies,
like people thought we had.

Was up to the women to
choose their lovers?

The women were given
their dignity back, given their matriarchal honor back, so Father let that run
through The Family. I mean he was the patriarch, but he formed the council of
women, we were the mothers of The Family and we kind of ran it. However, the
men ran the Source and what happen on the outside.

The
women for a while, did run it, and the reasoning was because mans' animal
always sees lust, a woman doesn't.  Let the woman come to you, trust her;
but, if a man wanted to be with somebody, all he had to do was look at her —
you'd know. And it was mutual so who had first say or not, it was all a
vibration.

Was there a favor towards
the men who were better at tantric?

I think what it was, was
we were all allowed to experience our threads with each other, for whatever
reason, whether you were blond, blue eyed, tantric, experienced, or not.
Everybody, if you put a bunch of people in a room, everybody is going to be
pulled to certain people, for whatever reason, it was the same way in The
Family. Now, if you had tantra down, that would have been an extra added bonus
because, you know, you have to practice.

When
The Family dispersed everybody kinda pretty much went on their own way.
He passed over in '75, we stayed together until '77, we stayed together
for a couple of years, all of us, hundreds of us, and then, when we dispersed,
people went off in either little small groups or people went back home to L.A.,
some people stayed in Hawaii, different things happened.

A
lot of people hit the gamut of society. A lot of them got into drugs, some got
into prostitution, some became ‘born again' Christians, some of ‘em got
straight-laced and put suits on everybody had like a different thing, until we
all could figure it out again, back in this reality with its rules.

Was it hard for the
majority to fit back into ‘this reality?'

It was hard for all of us
because we lived in a world  our own realm a reality that we had to come
down from because it did not fit the reality and rules of the earth realm we
left and were now back into.

I
remained his wife, I mean I never felt that our thread was broken and I knew
our journey was not done. He is still speaking to me and he is still within me,
I can feel him stand within me. I didn't ever feel a lack of anything.

We
had a very strong understanding, and he had me by the nape of the neck and I
knew I wasn't done. I remained his wife, and I became, it wasn't on purpose —
but I became what they call, an Aquarian nun.

I
wasn't with anybody else, and I haven't been, for forty something years,
because I still feel like I'm with him.  Somebody said to me, "Isn't that
like living in the past?" and I said "no, because I brought the past with me."

So,
I remained his wife, I became an Aquarian nun, and then I ended up the crone,
the elder, I embrace those parts that he said we would, and I'm the only one
that did that to this degree everybody else kinda went on their way and
remarried or some disclaimed him, most went into a Source closet of sorts. A
lot held him in their hearts but quietly moved on, even though most are coming
back around now.

I
never closed the door on it whereas some people went into a total Source box,
closet, and closed the door on it, and their families never even knew until the
book came out.

It
was like "you were what? You were in the Source Family…? You were even a
hippie?" 

It
drove my daughter nuts because she tried to fit in everywhere else, she became
completely different than me, she couldn't bring her friend's home
because I had this strange picture up in my house, this guy with a beard and a
robe, and she had to try and explain her mom. She suffered because of it, although
at the time I am sure it looked more grim to her than what it really was or
should have been. The teens were hard for everyone no matter what social situation
one finds themselves in, it is their teething time and learning cures. We went
through our times, they had to do so and so it will continue.

So Ra, your daughter
Saturna's father, was he also in The Family?

Yes he was in The
Family, we get along very well. Saturna was the last baby born before the
family dispersed. My journey into Aquarian Nunhood started after family
dispersed, and Ra and I 
parted when Saturna was about 4. Actually one day at the Father
House Father Yod looked at me and said "Isis within a few years you will have a
child," but smiled and said "your time is not now".

Was Ra ever jealous, or
did he understand that part of you that had that connection with Father Yod?

It was a hard one for him
after the family I think — to measure up to that. It had a lot to do with him
leaving me.  It was hard for him, he had to find his own path and being,
instead of trying to become the next Father Yod for me.

Did anyone try to take
over Father Yod's role after he died and try to embrace this figure?

To degrees, yes, because
they thought that was what they were supposed to do. There was maybe even women
who tried to do it, thinking, maybe it's supposed to be one of the women, or
all of the women, but no. There is only one Father Yod. We're all supposed to
be who we are, nobody is supposed to be anybody else, and that was his journey
and we are all supposed to have our own.

At
the time of his death, we all knew what the program was. We knew that he was to
show us how it was to be done. We held a three and a half day vigil, and we all
understood it. It takes time for our organs to shut down and our soul to review
this incarnations "River of Life". We weren't in grief, or shock, maybe we were
in a little shock, I don't know, but we maintained the status quo, we dwell
within it.

He
was conscious so if he wanted to go to the hospital all he had to do was say-he
would have been there so quick, nobody would have resisted.

He
at one point turned to Makushla and asked "Do you think I should?" He was waxing
back into Jim Baker, he was going, you know this was like 'something's
happening here…' and all she said to him was, "you can do what you want,
but it would
be going against your own teachings."

At
that point he said "you're right" but it was always up to him, whatever he wanted
to do. He rode it through-a natural death, like a natural spiritual birth into
the next realm. So if he went to the hospital, who knows what they would have
done, blood transfusion. There wasn't anything wrong with him, the autopsy said
"Cause of Death: Unknown".  They couldn't find a thing wrong with him.

Hawaiian newspapers
reported that he had broken his back.

No! There
were no broken back or bones. In fact when we got to him from the flight down
off the mountain he was not even bleeding and he did get up with help from us
and at that time mentioned his back did hurt. It's called Samadhi* Where your
kundalini goes up and you just exit into the next realm and you birth your own
godhead. It's a concept that is going to be more understood as we go on, it's
starting to be understood now.

[Ed.
note: *In Hinduism, sam?dhi can also refer to videha mukti or the complete
absorption of the individual consciousness in the self at the time of death —
usually referred to as

mahasam?dhi (wiki)] 

When
we found him he was in the bliss asking "where is that angel who led me down?"

When
we moved out of L.A. to Hawaii our dream was to own land and be self sufficient
in the Dome Community we were going to build.  It was a great plan and who knows, one day some part of it
still might happen.

Now
Father is being called a cult hero.  He was at the time, a living legend.
Some people have called us living legends, we were part of the
forerunners, we were definitely part of it. I would consider myself an alpha
crone, at this point, those are some of the tags that have been put on me, I
was always alpha driven.

There
is a new frequency hitting that will not allow old programming or old modi
operandi from anybody to dilute with who we are now and who our next evolution
as a spiritual being is.

I
got his adventure right away, other people didn't. I got exactly what he was
doing, right from the time I stepped onto the Source patio and saw him and said
"lets do it, lets get on with it" we both knew, I got it right away!

So,
being one of the fourteen wives, women, I never had a problem with it at all, I
saw exactly what was going on, and we all got exactly what we needed, nobody
lacked anything. He knew what he was doing…and for me re the women, we were
sisterhood before the wives so for me it worked and it was an awesome way of
life.

Was he good in bed?

It wasn't that he was
good in bed, or not it's just that he knew how to treat us as a woman, he gave
us what we needed, whether it was a hug, or a look through the
eye, whether it was through Dynamism, (sexual tantra) it was his journey and
he seemed to know how to handle it all as he/we continued through this
journey.  There were no complaints,
let me put it that way.

People
are at a point now where they say, I forgive — but I can't forget. It fragments
the purpose of forgiving somebody, if you don't forget it, then you haven't
forgiven,  it's like it's an old program, and it's a hook to keep you
in  that vibration, and why do that to yourself and that other person?

So
we all have our reality and we are all processing it, we were a group of souls
who moralized for the Source adventure, and Father was the real mystique and
magic in it all, it was the heyday of the ‘70's, and I also feel the ‘60's and
‘70's are re-emerging for this generation, I call it a Renaissance.

The
next generation is not necessarily the younger generation, the next generation
is US, all of us, who are committing to this program, this evolutionary
program, where you don't see race, creed, nationality or age.

I'm
70 and I can go with people in their 20s and we don't even know how old each
other are and we fit together like one frequency. The next generation is all of
us and that's what that term means, we are all one, but we all have our thread.

There
is a new thought paradigm.  There is a neighborhood in a very ritzy
section of L.A. that have old mansions that nobody could afford to rent, young
kids are moving in and co-housing and forming communities, natural birth, the
green movement, the green energy, the eating, the clothes.

Our
soul is sovereign. It doesn't matter if, like my friend telling me today, "I
think L.A. is getting me down, I think I need to move out of here, the work
it's destroying me". I just looked at him, and I said, "if you're standing
sovereign in your soul, and your soul is sovereign; it doesn't matter where you
are- nothing can harm or touch you."

What
does it matter where you are? If you're somewhere else you can still be with
yourself and have the same issues. Learning to operate at a higher frequency
that stuff can't touch you. Even disease can't touch you when you are vibrating
at a certain frequency.

We
are birthing our own Godhood's. Every day we have to spend time developing our
own divinity. I had this conversation with a friend and she goes, "how do you
know? It's like a small voice" I said "exactly, why is it small? And why is it
there? And why don't you birth it, that's your Godhood."

Why is that important
voice so small?

Well, birth it and make
it your whole being.  So now every day I say to her, "Have you spent time
with your divinity today? Have you hugged your Godhead within you to nurture it
and bring it forth?" She said to me "That small voice is kinda growing up real
fast I can feel it", and once that starts developing it does take over,
you do start noticing a crossover, a change, a conscience.

I
am starting to have this gradual new insight of just what does it mean to birth
your own Godhood.

To
evolve from man to a spiritual being as our next evolution it means not taking
the old programs with us, they will not fit anyhow. It might also mean giving
up all concepts of this evolutionary way of thinking and doing, meaning to form
your own direct link or thread to the Source with no middle man.

This
would eliminate the need for gurus, masters, teachers anyone riding herd,
however well intended it is, for everything they got and gave or left us is
from the same source that we can connect with directly (spiritual maturity
time). Its about giving up all ego or personality claims about who you think
you are, and merging the heart with the mind for a balance of love and wisdom.
It's about relating to soul over ego or personalities. This will be the
crossover work now and this age is 2,000 years long and we are just in the beginning
of it. We are like pioneers or something and in a very few short years to the
next generation will see us as very simple in it all. Kind of like before
electricity was discovered and used by all.

Also,
the Cosmic Council wants a new show from us. They're bored. They're tired of
the same old, same old,  that is
why shit's hitting the planet, they are like "still the same play? Do we have
to keep watching this over and over again?" It's like they just took a disc and
threw it out the window. "Give me something new, this isn't working!"

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out more here and here.

Twitter: @YodHead 

Photography
by Jon Gordon Mackenzie

Source
Photos : courtesy of Isis Archives

Caroline Ryder first met Isis Aquarian and the Source Family in 2007,
when she wrote about the fashions worn by Father Yod's women for the LA
Times. Splitting her time between Joshua Tree and Hollywood, she writes
about women, music, art and entertainment for Dazed&Confused, the LA
Weekly, New York magazine and Cosmopolitan. She is working on her first
novel.
www.carolineryder.com